Today was a rainbow of emotions...
He's a nice guy. For some reason, I see myself in him...a combination of the current and my formal self. I think everything will turn out great for you two. Like I said before, all I wanted is your happiness (even though I know that this would bite me in the end). Anyway, it's him that you want...not me. On any case, I will be happy for you and will support you all the way...cause it's the title...
"So that's it? Just like that!? After everything he has said...after the emotional turmoil you have experienced...it only took "a flick of a finger" and that's it!? What happened to the things you said you're gonna do? Where's your pride? This is the reason why (she) got pissed off with you before...you never mean what you say. You know that I've always supported you and that I respect all the decisions that you make. I never meddled with anything you wanted to do; but in this case, I just want to say something about it. I don't think it's a good idea at all. But who am I to lecture you or dictate things to you? I'm not your father and I'm definitely not your boyfriend...I'm just you...friend. And you won't listen anyway. I'm just concerned. I don't wanna see you sad anymore. But if this is the thing that would make you happy...then fine. It was you who told me that even though he is like that, you still love him. Anyway, I've done my part...the rest is all up to you now."
Sorry, I had to let this out before I go to bed. I was supposed to have this monologue face-to-face, kaso nawalan ako ng buwelo; and the mood wasn't there anymore. Besides, I suck at this. If ever, the person concerned is already reading this, (though I doubt it) then I'm sorry I wasn't able to say this to you face-to-face and this is how I really feel. If you want to talk about it, let's talk about it.
I'm going to bed...
He says: "Ikalimampung pag-aaway" by KAZE
She says: "Cool Off" by Session Road
I say: "Halaga" by Parokya Ni Edgar
I've always been the sort who relied on her instincts. Some people might say it is quite typical of a woman to rely on her intuition rather than her logic. Over the past several years I've tried my best to follow my head instead of my gut feel because sometimes, the smartest and the most intuitive of us can be wrong. But when you have facts, when you have evidence, you can't possibly do so.
However, logical thinking can only take us so far. A cause has an effect. An if has an else. An action always has a consequence. The past has a future. 1 + 1 = 2. These are things that cannot be contested, there is no alternative answers to such questions. But there are some, such as knowing who we are, and why we are here or what is out there; these are questions that have no formula. Some, if not a lot of us spend all of our lives seeking for wealth, happiness, even peace, while some of us invest all time and effort in searching for the truth. It may not make us happy, it may not give us peace, but at least we have the answers.
It is out there.
I won't be crossposting anymore to Multiply because I'm deleting my livejournal account (which does the crossposting for me). I have too much Internet clutter, so I'll be be keeping all blog entries in my tabulas, and all my photo albums on multiply. Anyway, I only joined LJ just to follow the private thoughts of one particular person (whom I will not mention...showbiz...hahaha!). Anyway, this person would tell me anyway if she had anything to say in private. (Holy shit! It's a girl! Haha!). I miss reading her thoughts, though...and what she had to say. Nakakaaliw kasi. Actually, I kindda miss her too (uuuyyy...wth?!). And besides, nobody's blogging anymore. So, if you want to access my site, just go to http://kupsman.tabulas.com.
