March 22nd, 2009
On being back
So I'm back in Manila, been back for almost a month now. I'm actually neither happy or sad about being back during the first few weeks that I got here. I'm just really, really sick and tired of moving. But lately I have been leaning towards being not happy because it sometimes feels like my house got burned down or something, and what meager stuff I have managed to save from the fire was stolen by your friendly neighborhood akyat bahay gang. It's just that when I left last September, we all thought that I was not going back for at least 5 years, so almost all my clothes were sold in a garage sale held shortly after I left, and my nursing books donated to some charity. It's nobody's fault really and I'm not blaming anybody but it really sucks having to wear the same 8 shirts over and over again when I had to go out. And since the parents are on tipid mode and won't be reinstating my student allowance till May, I can't buy new stuff. Or go out a lot for that matter. Which oddly, at this point in my life is actually a good thing because of the clothes situation. And no, I was not able to go shopping when I bummed around in Illinois for 5 months because I just felt like I didn't need to do so because I rarely go out when I was there anyway. So yeah, life pretty much stinks for me nowadays.
Even my self-review is disappointing me. My scores on the end of chapter questions were horrible. But the good news is I am finally done reading my Saunders book after 75 million years. So fine I cheated and skipped a chapter and a half but I think I'm ready for my qbanks now. I managed to get hold of A LOT of them when I was procrastinating at the public library so even if I am planning on taking the exam in May, I won't be running out of questions to answer even if I did a minimum of 100 questions a day. And knowing myself, I won't be reviewing like everyday from now til my exam date anyway. hahaha.
Anyway, turns out I need to get me some hospital experience while waiting for the stupid retrogression to go away. And with our country's current economic state... hay good luck. My fellow RN friends have submitted their resumes and stuff to a couple of hospitals a few months ago and nobody has called them back for an interview yet. So yay another reason why being back here stinks.
Don't get me wrong, I like being back sometimes too. My cousin has a Wii, which I haven't even touched yet because I promised myself I'm not gonna until after my NCLEX. And add to her sort of new toy, she's a total booksale shopaholic and she has managed to acquire about a hundred new books while I was gone. Her dibidi collection has also grown. But the best part about being back is that I actually get to see and be with my friends again. uy. Yikee. Hehehe. Seriously though, I really missed the planned and unplanned lakads, and the drinking parties! I haven't had much practice for 5 months that I got tipsy/drunk so quickly and threw up after a few drinks on the two inuman sessions I've been to. Such a shame, I know this is not something to be proud of, but I am actually one of the few ones left standing on times like those.
I still don't know when I will be able to go back to the US but I'm quite optimistic that it wouldn't take me 2 years, that's why I decided not to have my old globe number reconnected. Hahahaha
Yeah well gotta go and do a hundred questions now. Actually just 75 because I already did 25 on the Mosby's Prioritization workbook. Hahahaha