The Fifth Marauder

mrssnuffles

the end of my nursing education that is. well it's not really over until i pass the local boards and the nclex and all those other exams but i am preparing myself for those said tests as early as now. or not. haha. basta! so i have realized a coupla things during the previous week wherein i have started my preparations:

1. our in-house review officially started last friday. most review days are scheduled during the weekends as it is the only available time we all had. so i can pretty much say goodbye to sabado nights which extend into sunday madaling araws. well not really, i figured i can still go out on saturday nights provided that i do not do it on a weekly basis. at nagdahilan pa. hehe.
2. i had to submit a photocopy of my NSO certified birth certificate to the school registrar as a graduation requirement and i saw that my mom was the same age as i am now when she had me. yikes.
3. i also realized that i will be crossing the "finish line" this year. please watch the movie got 2 believe (starring claudine baretto and the late rico yan hehe) para makarelate ka.
   
4. we took a long ass pretest last saturday and sunday. it's sort of patterned after the board exam and it's supposed to evaluate what we have learned so far in school. and i have just wasted 3 years of my life because i couldn't answer even a quarter of those exam questions correctly.
5. it's hard to stay in a good mood when one only has about 4 hours of sleep. and when one had to answer 450 questions on topics that are completely alien to her.
   
6. watching a lot of medical shows (grey's, scrubs, house) pay off every once in a while. especially during the medical-surgical part of the pretest.
   
7. i really gotta start reading my nursing books again. soon. waaaaah.
8. i gotta start investing on clothes again because we are not required to wear our white uniforms during the review. whee. i miss mixing and matching clothes and stuff so that people wouldn't notice that i wore the same shirt or whatever just weeks ago
   
9. i miss reading for fun. the white oleander book has been rotting in my bag for the past 2 weeks now.
10. i find pulling out patient records from a manual filing system (as seen on the photo below) a very fulfilling and fun job, it's scary. i would rather do this all day than get the patients' vital signs, weight, etc etc. this is just for patients whose last names start from F - Z. casa medica has another row of shelves for patients from A - E, and another for patients with health cards. haven't these people heard of automation? but then again i would not be enjoying myself in casa medica as much. hehe
    

 

mrssnuffles

my plans were pretty straightforward when i agreed to study nursing. finish 3 more years of college. graduate. then hop on a plane to chicago the day after.but things got complicated. we found out that i have to take the local boards. so the plan was then changed to finish college. graduate. take the local boards. then hop on a plane to chicago the next day. but then the other day i found out that i have to wait for the results of the exam. i really have no confidence on my nursing knowledge (hahahahahaha) and there is a chance that i might fail the boards on my first take. so then the plan was changed to finish 3 years of college. graduate. take the local board. wait for the results. finish oath taking or kill myself (hehehe kidding! pramis!) depending on the said results. only then can i hop on a plane to chicago.

but the problems do not end there. i might have a visa problem if i do not pass the june boards and if the results will take longer than 2 months to come out. and when i finally hop on a plane to chicago, i can't immediately start earning those dollars everyone in my family promised me because i have to take the nclex and apply for a chicago nursing license. hay. just thinking about it makes my head hurt.

we didn't have hospital duty yesterday so i just used that time to review at the school library. i passed by the nursing arts lab on the second floor, my classroom since i started the NCM series and saw the third year students having their cardio-pulmo lecture. it made me wish i could go back to ncm 102 and stay there forever, despite the fact that it was the hardest ncm i've taken up. i know i have been counting the days till my graduation ever since i first started nursing, but maybe i am just too lazy to deal with those said problems. or maybe i feel like i am still not ready to deal with real world and go on a real duty wherein no CI can save my ass or back me up when i forget something. it's funny that i wanted to go back to ncm 102 when it's my most difficult sem so far, with our first med-surg experience plus the thesis and the new section system. i still cannot fathom how the hell did i end up in section a. i figured myself as more of the section c type, you know the happy slackers with brains. hehe.

been having crazy mood swings for the past two weeks. must be the 2 night shift days we had in osmun. or maybe it's getting to be that time of the month again.

mrssnuffles

i rarely post surveys in my blogs as i have my friendster bulletin board for that, but what the heck it's a boring saturday, the aif people (well most of them are hehe) are in cagayan de oro, and my nursing friends are probably at home resting or studying for the exit interview. in short, i am stuck in loserville. haha. not really complaining though, even if i was all dressed up in the review earlier and with nowhere to go to after, because am tired. been having sleeping problems again.

anyway... 

The rules: The first player of this game starts with the "6 weird things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things, as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read yours

6 weird things about me that you might not know:

1. i am stereotypically a girl in such a way that i can change my mind with a snap of a finger

2. i love spontaneity. i love spontaneous lakads and gimiks and oftentimes you have a greater chance of making me go to the said spontaneous lakad and gimik rather than a planned one, because well, please see item number one. i love revising and changing my plans a i go through my day. which brings me to..

3. i often run errands and go shopping alone because of number one and number two. you have to have enormous amounts of patience within you to be able to still want to come shopping with me after a previous shopping trip.

4. i do not study as hard as my other classmates, nor do i engage in advanced reading but for the life of me i cannot understand why i  still get passing grades but those people with the same study habits as i do not.

5. sometimes i am scared of moving on and finally graduating from college.

6. i secretly have low self-esteem.