The Fifth Marauder

mrssnuffles

i am usually one of the last people standing during night shift hospital duties. it's just that i'm really maarte when it comes to sleeping. i can only fall asleep when it's cold, i have a blanket and pillow, the room is dark and quiet, and i am not sleeping beside somebody. however, give me a lot of chivas regal and generoso shots and....

 blag! i fall asleep in an arm chair inside a room full of people. if only i could have alcohol every night huh? i won't be having troubles sleeping anymore, but i would be killing my liver before i reach my 40s. too bad huh? this was taken last night when the impromptu party at my friend girlie's house was just beginning to adjourn. i felt bad because i didn't help with the tidying up of the house. the morning hangover was not that bad, as i spent most of the day lying down and reading. i guess the nice weather helped. i even took a nap earlier this afternoon. if only i could sleep like this everyday.. i could do without the headache and the feelings of nausea though. i have been very stubborn the whole day, i refuse to drink acetaminophen or paracetamol (my hangover remedy, this plus black coffee) because i have put my liver through so much stress last night, i wanted to give her a rest today. hehe.

not bad for the very first alcohol fest for 2008. kahit pang tatay ang ininom. hehe.  

mrssnuffles

this day has the makings of being an emo one. i must have only had a few hours of sleep, it's cold as the sun is still warming up hehe, and i'm listening to copeland (thanks pepaye for the tip! hehe) anyway i'm not in the mood to be emo. quite the opposite, i feel kinda perky.

i went out with his friends last night against my better judgment. his friends are not exactly snobs, in fact they're quite the opposite, but there is something about them that makes me clam up and forget that i am a people person who never stops talking. maybe it has something to do with the fact that the girls are so gorgeous i want to kill myself (hehe) whenever i see them and i just feel insecure. or maybe because they are not exactly people persons. or maybe because last night was the first time that i was actually with them for more than a few minutes. or maybe because i am just used to kenkoy-er people.

i woke up early today even if i went home around 3 am this morning. it's weird, my eyes flew open at 7 and  i couldn't go back to sleep after that. my tita was puzzled as well when she saw me up and about at that hour because she knew i was a little late in coming home. i dunno why. am not exactly thinking about him. on the contrary, i am not too thrilled about him at the moment. this always happens after the brief encounters i have had with his friends. it's like poof, my something something for him decreases down to about 40% as opposed to a 120% most of the time. haha. maybe i should hang out with his friends more?

actually i am thinking about schoolwork right now. i have an individual case presentation on multiple sclerosis due on monday, plus i haven't  finished rewriting 2 weeks worth of lecture notes. but then i had a sudden attack of the "lazies" (hehe). i just want to go back to bed and read choke. my cousin borrowed it for me from the school library.

mrssnuffles

kasi wala na kong mahanap na iba. hehe

i think we've been having nice nice weather at night but i never realized it until earlier this evening when my cousin begged me to come with her to the park because she had to talk to her boyfriend, but she's not allowed to have one yet as she is only 16, so she asked me to be her alibi. i agreed because i have been lying in front of the tv all day, having a lost marathon.

i brought my ipod but unlucky for me i forgot to charge it. sayang it was a nice time as any to listen to elliott yamin. sige na sige na md na kung md. hehe.

so i was on the swing for quite a while, just staring off into the sky as there was nothing else to do. thought about things. i tried scrolling through my fone book, looking for a person to call because i was getting bored with nobody to talk to, but decided against it. i know that there is only one person i wanted to call but i have declared a text strike as of thursday morning. it's been hard. our prof cancelled our class today, and we usually meet up and just hang out whenever this happens. i miss him a lot even if it's only been a day since we last saw each other. he's been taking me for granted lately, and maybe this time i should let him come to me. if he doesn't, well too bad for me.

this i what i get for liking a guy a few years younger than i am. i mean i am already in my mid-twenties, i should be above all this crap. hay.

yeah yeah it's all for the best. it would never work anyway, with the different religious background and age thing. plus i am leaving for the US later this year and i don't want a reason to want to stay any longer in this country.

i am gonna miss him though. and i've got to get used to shopping alone again.