The Fifth Marauder

mrssnuffles

firt of all, i would like to apologize for the typos and grammar errors of the previous entry. i think i was in a hurry. and i call myself a grammar whore. hehe 

i think i may have lost something this week: the capability to care for things that really matter. it seems that people around me are blogging and talking about the latest coup or whatever it is that you call them things, but me. i rarely watch tv nor read the newspaper anyway. and then one would think i should feel even an ounce of worry or sadness after finding out last night that my lola was rushed to the ICU yesterday. but i just replied ok after hearing the news and answered the questions about her condition as if i was just in an oral revalida for a case presentation in school. being this apathetic is scary. i used to feel a host of emotions for my patients, but now someone from my family is in the ICU and i am here at home blogging about it instead of being in the hospital. maybe in the 2 years that i have done hospital duty, i have somehow grown tired of being in a hospital. of caring for sick people. now i see my patients as a job, as something that i could apply the nursing interventions that i have learned to so that my clinical instructor have something to record as my grade, so that i could finally earn my nursing degree, so i could finally finish studying. and i hate going to the hospital. in fact i hate going out of the house altogether (well except to watch a movie but that's a different story). no i am not depressed. it's just that i am somehow in an anti-social mood. or maybe i'm just depressed and i didn't know it. haha.

yesterday he texted me at 7 am, asking me if i wanted to go to MOA. he wanted to buy flipflops and a shirt and i wanted to watch one more chance and when i told him that, he cancelled the last minute. oh well. i watched the movie anyway without him but i went to sucat instead of moa. i haven't had a date with myself for the longest time anyway. the movie was ok. or maybe i just expected too much. or maybe i just wasn't in a lovey-dovey mood. maybe i just didn't like john lloyd's character. and bea saw. no there's nothing wrong with her character, i just didn't like her. haha.

i think i like not talking. haven't talked that much since thursday. my voice sounds a bit hoarse when i decide to talk. from lack of use maybe? hehe.

oh man the most dreaded rotation is scheduled for tomorrow. my friend chel and i was hoping that another typhoon would come, so that classes and duty would be cancelled so that actual ward exposure would be lessened. maybe this is why i have been feeling like this. icoincidentally (is there such a word? hehe), i will be in the same hospital as my lola is tomorrow morning. i just hope that the apathetic phase will be behind me tomorrow or at least on tuesday otherwise doing ward jobs would be three times as hard with the state i am in right now.

oh well off to do something productive. i'm going to watch lost. hahaha kidding. i gotta read a chapter of the anatomy made easy book.  

mrssnuffles

hay naku. ayoko na muna pasakitin ang ulo ko sa pag english. kahit mali mali. haha. anyway, humingi ng favor sa akin yung friend ko na lagyan ng songs yung bagong shuffle ng mom niya. yung songs manggagaling sa 8 na audio cd. so ang balak ko sana is, irrip ko each cd, tapos lipat ko yung songs in m4a format sa ipod, tapos delete ko sana yung songs kasi sayang sa space, laptop ko pa naman ang ginagamit ko. so sa first cd, ginawa ko siya at nung dinelete ko, aba nadelete din yung sa shuffle! kasi nung nagsync na ko ulit, hinanap ng shuffle yung songs sa itunes library ko. so hinanap ko sa itunes ko yung check box for manually manage songs and playlists. wala siya. as in nakailang hanap ako sa buong itunes ko, wala. so ginoogle ko siya. apparently problema din siya ng ibang mga shuffle owners. so sabi ko na lang sa friend ko na enjoy na lang muna ng mom niya yung music na nilagay ko kasi pag sinaksak niya sa ibang pc yan na may itunes, or tinry niya i-sync,mabubura lahat ng songs na nilagay ko. hay naku talaga. ubos oras pala to. haha.

grabe may gumagamit pa pala ng audio cd? hahaha wala lang ang kapal kasi ng mukha ko mamirata. ang sa akin lang naman eh kasi wala ako pambili ng original na cd tapos mabilis naman ang internet dito sa bahay (well compared sa dial up that is hehe), tapos may ipod naman ako, kaya bale wala din kung bibili pa ko ng cd.

"you know, the thing that makes a fantasy great is the possibility that it might come true. And when you lose that possibility…it just kind of sucks."

-catherine willows, csi

wala lang, naalala ko lang bigla tong scene na to sa isang episode ng csi, sinabi to ni catherine kay warrick pagtapos malaman ni cath (hehe feeling close) na kinasal na pala si papa warrick sa ibang babae. wala lang, parang nakarelate ako sa kanya ngayong araw na to.

lecheng bwakanangshet na tao yan, paulit ulit na lang ako ego-broken (salamat pepaye for the term) sa kanya, pero tignan mo next time na lumapit siya sa kin kasi may kailangan siya, ibibigay ko pa rin yun without hesitating. bwiset talaga feeling mo naman guwapo ka. haha.

hay official start na ng ward duty from hell bukas. orientation lang pala kanina hehe. hay naku good luck na lang sa akin 

mrssnuffles

we got our grad pics today. i looked fugly in my picture. however, i allowed myself a tiny smile when i saw grad pic me in a black toga. finally! after 8 friggin years i am finally going to don a hogwarts robe! hehe. i could remember years ago seeing a group of students in black togas standing in front of the engineering building in dlsu, and clippy telling me that someday WE are going to be wearing those togas ourselves. well clippy beat me to it, but it's ok, pana-panahon lang yan. hehe. 

i missed going online. ward duty is really really tiring especially if you're in the morning shift and have been assigned two patients, one of which has the room at the end of a long hallway and is recovering from a stroke. hay. my lola is in the same hospital so after 8 hours of not eating and walking around, i have to go stay with her for a few hours instead of just going home to rest.

i think i am getting tired of waiting. spent the whole day with him today. i couldn't go home after my 8 am class because new wallpaper is being pasted on the walls of our house and he wanted to work on the NCAR. we weren't even talking that much while we were at the library. maybe i don't like him as much  as i think i did. or maybe i was running on 3 hours of sleep and little food that i was not in a chatty mood. oh well.

mrssnuffles

something is seriously wrong with the "s" button on my keyboard. i always have to make sure that i press it hard enough so that it would show up on my screen.

anyway, i just have to take one prelim exam tomorrow and then finally i am on vacation until hospital duty starts on january 2. this is like the easiest semester i have had. ever. i only have one subject and although it's a major subject, it's quite easy because there is no trace of clinical stuff on it. yehey.

we have been having problems in school because of the in-house review but i don't want to ore you with it. plus i don't really care. my mom's willing to pay 12,000 for the review anyway plus another 8,000 plus or so for another review center. whatever. 

some of our relatives are coming home for christmas. so it's going to be a tight squeeze once again in here. i am seeing a lot of late nights and uncomfortable sleeping positions. it is a good thing that they are coming during the day that i don't have classes or hospital duty. and to while away those late nights, i am going to have to catch up on my mile long reading list. yehey.

speaking of lists, i realized that i haven't made a christmas one. nothing in the list is too expensive so...

-time traveller's wife by audrey niffenegger
-more chuck palahniuk books (except diary of course, which i already have hehe)
-the l'oreal 3 step skin care (costs only 800 pesos people! sige na please! hehe)
-a new volumizing smudge proof mascara (preferably maybelline. 600 lang yun!)
-new ipod earphones (because i broke my present pair. again.for the nth time)
-a new pair of jeans
-a digital camera

that's all i could think of right now. i gotta run off to the library in school so i could get some studying done.  plus i've been craving for the siomai in a cup that they sell in front of the school gates every afternoon.

mrssnuffles

i realized that this if everything goes according to plan, this is going to be my last pinoy pasko. wala lang. such a shame, i wasn't able to do the simbang gabi. plus my tita tells me that we won't be having the usual christmas party at home, because my lola is still in the hospital. i think we will be bringing the noche buena in paranaque med. it's ok though, because i'm all partied out anyway. hehe. and besides, it means that we won't be entertaining visitors this year. yay.

drinking one bottle of red horse at 4 in the morning on an empty stomach can yield disastrous results. i wanted to go to the bathroom, i think i had my eyes closed, but i ended up standing beside my cousin's bed and mistook her knee for the doorknob. hahaha. i couldn't sleep very well after that i got home around 4:30 and woke up at 10 am. i'm on my vacation i can always catch up on my sleep some other day.

the people i was with last night (i wouldn't call them my friends, but one of them is hehe) just texted me and said that they got home around 9 am. grabe. the latest i have gone home is 7. had i not decided to drink the red horse, i think i would have stayed with them. and then my tita would have  ground me for life. haha.  i was thirsty as hell when i got up this morning. and now i feel like my head is floating. it is a good thing i postponed the trinoma adventure for next week.

when i am alone, in one of my pre-bedtime thinking sprees and when i wake up in the morning, i get rational and think of a hundred reasons (ok so quite a few) reasons why he is clearly wrong for me, how it would never work, and how in a million years he would never feel the same way, but then i see him or he texts me and acts all boyfriend-y and stuff and i forget all of these things. anubeh? sabi nga ni faye. haha. just 3 months more of torture and we would all be graduating and then i don't have to see him again. for a really long time.

 i haven't done my christmas shopping. so sad. it's just that i have been busy and on the days that i am not, i am too lazy to go to the mall. and going shopping today, being a saturday, the last weekend before christmas would be suicide. masigabong palakpakan na lang guys ang gift ko. hehe

mrssnuffles

it was a weird christmas eve celebration. we usually have a big party but now only 5 other people came over for dinner. we went to the hospital after these said 5 people left.

and then we went home and i got wasted. my cousin who's home for the holidays hosted a drinking party and i invited myself. it didn't matter that all the guests were boys, i just wanted to get drunk. and got drunk i did. hehe. i left the party to crash in shari's room a about 2 am. threw up in the bathroom first. and then  this morning i woke up with the hangover from hell. it gets worse when i lie down. i still feel like throwing up.

audrey hepburn is beautiful. wala lang my cousin's watching breakfast at tiffany's on dvd right now.

i never learn. i know that i would be having a huge headache the next morning but i still drink like there's no tomorrow. ugh.

anyway, merry christmas everyone! 

mrssnuffles

or not. i want to blog about how 2007 has been a good or bad year for me, but i am too lazy to do so. i also wanted to say how this past christmas has been a bloody good one, in a selfish, materialistic way, but still, i am too lazy to do so.

so happy new year everyone! may 2008 be an even bigger party year than 2007 was. although i highly doubt this as we are going to be taking our board exams this year and the closest thing we are going to have to party is after review coffee-slash-dinner. wala lang feeling ko lang.

so for my new year's resolutions, i only have two: lose weight and be serious about studying. this is it na talaga for the latter. kailangan na talaga maging serious.

as for my pseudo whatever (hehe), ewan ko. i can't think of something right now.

what happened to tonti's multiply? i wanted to "acquire" some songs earlier this afternoon and when i tried to access his site, it says that the user tonti does not exist. boo. maybe the multiply guys deleted his account or something? sayang naman. hope he finds another way of sharing his gifts with us mere mortals. hehe