The Fifth Marauder

i'm tired. and sleepy. i didn't know that sitting around doing nothing all day can be more draining than doing hospital duty. i know that i should be asleep right now, as i will have a repeat performance of this day (hopefully not because maybe someone will go on labor during our shift at the paranaque community hospital), but i dunno i just felt like blogging.

one of my good friends is getting married soon, she just told me right now through ym. i'm not envious or anything,but this is one of them times when i just feel a dip in my self-esteem level. it's just that everyone i went to college or high school with are out there living their adult lives, looking all fabulous, going on these out of the country and out of town trips,found someone to be serious with (for the meantime? hehe), and rambling about work, whereas i am still stuck with a student's allowance and playing mind games with a child. i know i have ranted about this one too many times, but i still can't help feeling this way.

maybe i'm just pms-ing or something. we studied about this in psychiatric nursing and yep, it's a real psych disorder.

anyway, had fun with the aif gang last saturday. for a change, the south people outnumbered the north ones on a lakad that is supposed to be on their turf. there were no seats available for the "groupies" in that place where alvin's band performed so we ended up standing almost the whole night. i am actually used to standing for long periods of time even though i weigh um, a lot, because of our previous hospital duties at the south super highway ER, but i stupidly wore platform shoes, and my feet were screaming at me to sit the fuck down after the first 2 hours of being on our feet. after hearing bright club play, we had dinner at gerry's grill, then dessert and coffee at starbucks. and then faye suddenly heard the intro for some urbandub song, we hastily ran back towards that cold place and we arrived just in time for first of summer. loved it, that one song was totally worth running on hurting feet with a nearly full cup of hot choco in hand. i screamed the lyrics of the song along with gabby alipe, and i think this was the part where i lost my voice. well not really, there was still plenty of voice left when we came back to starbucks to just hang out and talk about temptation island. haha. finally saw the video and i wasn't disappointed. i tried telling my other friends about the video and they didn't find it as funny as i did. must be something to do with faye, alex, and jay's delivery of the kuwento.

do you like chuck palahniuk? please do check out one of his short stories: http://www.seizureandy.com/stuff/guts.html. i think it's pretty gross, but i am pretty much used to blood and gore (you would too after spending 2 weeks at the MCP OR)already. love the story though, pareng chuck (hehe feeling close) can really paint a picture in my mind.

here's to hoping tomorrow's going to be a better day.

first things first, i finally got a haircut! i realized just last saturday (when i had the said haircut) that i only go to the parlor twice a year for my hair since i started taking up nursing, and that's usually before or after i take the final exams.

 

 

the before pic, my hair in all its buhaghag glory and my face free of make up.

 

 

the after pics. like what my cousin said, "walang umaalis ng parlor na panget!" haha. and my hair pretty much looks like the before pic again. hehe.

anyway, i've been complete bed rest since i got home at 1 pm after the comprehensive exams. i have a stomach thing since monday. i have lost the urge to eat, and when i do, i would throw it up after an hour or so. and the stomach thing couldn't have come in a worse time, as my final exams started on monday as well. it is a very good thing that i have done quite well during the prelim and midterm grading periods because i have bombed on all of my exams. there was even one exam that was 115 items, and when i got to number 70, i didn't want to read the rest of the exam questions anymore, i just wanted to exercise my psychic powers and shade whatever letter that comes to mind. haha.

there are several theories as to why i got this stomach thing. it could be the leftover paella that we had for dinner sunday night, but i find it weird that i am the only one here at home who had stomach problems. it could be my body's way of pms-ing, as i got my period this morning and although i still feel nauseous after eating, the urge to eat is coming back. it could also be stress. worst case scenario is early stage of diabetes mellitus, since we have a family history of this disease, plus i am not exactly a health buff. but even more worst (haha) is...colon cancer. or maybe i'm just paranoid because that's one of our topics for the comprehensive exam. but whatever it is, i'm in a way thankful that i have lost my appetite because not only did i save a huge chunk of my allowance since monday (because i lived on skyflakes and gatorade), but i lost 4 pounds as well. yay. hehe.

my sembreak officially starts tomorrow. yay.

the first day of my sembreak/freedom did not go very well. although i did wake up without feeling nauseous, my stomach has stopped doing its morning backflips, and i can feel hunger again, i gave myself a headache by lying down all day, watching dr house and reading love rosie. and around midday, i got bored. i know i should be resting, but every time my fone beeped, i kept on hoping it's one of my friends, asking me if i wanted to come out and play. it's very very odd because i am actually craving for human contact? or maybe i just miss...nah don't want to think about that.

anyway, i just can't believe that i won't be seeing my white uniforms and scrubs for about 3 weeks max. so what to do with the spare time? so i made a list:

-study pharmacology and anatomy. again.
-buy new pharma and anatomy books. preferably the one with the words "made easy" or "for dummies" in the title
-finish installing the necessary crap in my computer
-do at least 30 minutes of hiphop abs a day
-read and finish at least 2 books that are not related to school
-catch up on my tv shows (dr house, grey's anatomy, gossip girl, heroes, ugly betty)
-do not text him everyday. unless he texts me first, which is a different story
-cover my books with plastic cover

 

 

i just realized that it's only tuesday. funny because it feels like it's wednesday already. does it make an effing difference? nope.not really. i know it's not like i've been stuck here at home for weeks (although it does feel like it), and i actually went on a date with me, myself and i last friday (went to sm jologs, watched the seeker, because i was bored), but today it just hit me that i am going to be doing the same damn thing over and over again every day for the next three weeks. you know, wake up. watch tv. surf the net. read a little. watch more tv. sleep. lather, rinse, repeat. i know it's wayyyy better than being in school and sitting down for some boring lecture, pretending to listen when i know that come major exam time i would be learning more from the handouts rather than the lecturer, but i don't know, i guess i just miss somebody. a lot. well i think not seeing him nor talking with him for a few weeks will be good because it'll help with the "trying not to like him that much anymore" thing. i just didn't realize that i would miss him this much, that i would gladly welcome the thought of wearing my white uniform again and going to the said boring lectures if it means that i will be seeing him again. good god i sound like a 13 year old girl with a crush.

i actually got to talk to him yesterday. technically, i was the one who texted him first, i forwarded a message about some school thing and he replied. and now he's playing the quiet game again. thank god for the people who uploaded the new grey's anatomy episodes at fanpop.

i haven't started my self-study project in anatomy and pharma

but the good news is, i have covered my books with plastic cover. or rather i had our helpers cover my books with plastic cover. hehe.  

haha corny ng title! 

i take it all back! i love staying here at home! hehe

i just saw episode 1 from the latest season of heroes. just saw peter petrelli near the end of the show and he is looking mighty fine. he just cut his hair, lost the scruff, and he's shirt less. need i say more? hehe. i wanted to go ahead and watch the next episode but i've been sitting in front of my computer all day and my butt is getting numb.

who needs to go out when there is fanpop.com and a bunch of books that i haven't read yet?  

hay. been converting the mp3s i got from faye's pc last saturday since yesterday, and i am still not done! 4 gigs of music is way too much to digest in one sitting, and i don't really spend a huge portion of my time in front of the computer all day, so i am transferring them all to my ipod and i figured i can always weed out songs later. yay. but i am especially scared of the indie rock playlist folders. hehe.

i am loving the new stars album. was listening to it this morning on my ipod. it was like listening to a soundtrack of a musical or something, they were not only singing, they were telling a story with their songs.

i am also in the process of rediscovering the cardigans and garbage. i think they were pretty popular when i was in high school but i think i was either too young or too senti to appreciate them back then. i think i was on the boyband and "cruisin" phase during this time. hehe.

still haven't started my reading assignment, because i haven't bought the made easy books. because i am perfectly happy staying here at home. hehe

i had fun last saturday with my p girls! i completely forgot that i still had a hangover from all the alcohol that i drank the night before during my friend elai's birthday party. funny because the hangover came back as soon as i went home. hehe

i'm a loser, i don't have any plans for halloween.

haha corny.

speaking of corny, i am having a corny halloween so far. i began the day by calling the school, because i wanted to ask whether the accounting office is open for the whole day because my friends and i were planning to enroll today. i must have called about 6 times before i gave up and went to school anyway. we were lucky because the office is open for the whole day. hehe.

and then we went to the school annex (aka sm sucat) because i needed to buy a bunch of those long plastic envelope things so i could organize and file the handouts and crap that i have accumulated last sem. it has been littering the room for days now and my tita must have told me thrice or four times already to fix those papers because seeing them gives her a headache.

when we got to sm, we saw all the janitors, salesladies/men, even their managers and supervisors in costume. it's quite an experience trying to pee and seeing a witch (in full makeup) inside the public cr with a mop in hand instead of a walis tingting. haha. oh and we also saw little kids in costume too. apparently there's a costume contest and they also get to beg for candy from all the shops inside the mall. hay i wish i was below 10 years old too so i can don a costume too and go trick or treating. hehe. i saw plenty of witches, sleeping beauties, snow whites, a sukob kid (hehe), a mummy (the kid i think was naked underneath the elastic bandage because we can see his stomach peeking through hehe), wonderwoman (with her pink panties showing underneath her red wonder panty), and the powerpuff girls. so cute. those kids and adults in costume totally made my day.

on my way home, i received a text message from my friend sandee, who was looking for a halloween party to go to. at first i considered going to central or somewhere in bf with her, but i changed my mind after a few minutes. i have to lie low on the alcohol and yosi for the meantime because my throat still hurts and my stomach is still doing its backflips from time to time, after effects of the birthday celebration elai had last friday. besides, i'm really tired and sleepy.

so i have been spending the last few hours watching disney channel, reading after dark by haruki murakami, and my brand spanking new anatomy and physiology made incredibly easy book. hehe.

and i don't really mind at all. well maybe a little part of me is begging to go out and get drunk (or tipsy hehe), but i know i really gotta rest. my throat is still a little sore and this afternoon i tried smoking again, and i think i gave myself a cold and my throat has become more sore. besides, for as long as i can remember, every halloween that i have had has been like this. me staying home in front of the tv or the computer or curled up with a good book.

oh well. but the good news is i am finally done with the 4 gig mp3 challenge. it made my computer run a little slower than usual but i don't care. haha