The Fifth Marauder

hay, sugarfree ang galing nyo gumawa ng kanta! simple lang, medyo cheesy pa nga ang lyrics kung minsan pero ang ganda. kagaya nitong part na to from the song ikaw pala:

Nung hindi na nakatingin at saka ka dumating
Nariyan ka lamang pala
Di ka lang nagsasalita
Ikaw pala, aking hinahanap
Ang bahaghari ko sa likod ng ulap
Ikaw ang hulog ng langit, sa puso kong napunit
Dahil sa dramang paulit-ulit
Kanina ka pa ba nariyan?

i swear napa-smile ako nung first time ko narinig yang part na yan. ayan hindi ko na alam kung alin ung mas gusto kong kanta sa tala-arawan, kung ito o yung ang pinakamagaling na tao sa balat ng lupa.  

hindi naman ako nakakarelate sa song na to, actually mas makakarelate nga dapat ako sa pinakamagaling na tao (i am friggin surrounded by these kind of people), pero ewan ko ba. siguro kasi merong nagkuwento sa kin tungkol sa kanyang lovelife at wala lang, masaya ako para sa kanya. patawad, kanina ko lang kasi narinig tong kantang to, meron pala ako nito sa itunes ko hehe.  

ewan ko ba pero ilang linggo na kong hindi nababad trip. basta ang hirap magalit. kahit nung isang gabi na nagrerevise ako ng thesis, eh umiinit kasi ulo ko talaga pag ito ang ginagawa ko, pero grabe hindi ako na bad trip! tsaka kahit maaga ako minsan gumigising para sa school, cheerful pa rin ako! ano ba! ako ba ito? siguro kasi twice a week ako nakikipag inuman for the past 3 weeks. yikes, kawawa naman ang liver ko.  

nag enrol na ko last monday. waaah panibagong rotation na naman. ayoko talaga ng 10pm-6am na shift. nahihirapan ang kalooban ko sa kanya. oo nga pwede ako bumawi ng tulog during the day pagkauwi ko pero gusto ko kasi ung natutulog pag madilim pa sa labas. hindi talaga ako mahilig mag-nap dati pa. sana sa OR na lang ulit kami para tulog lang ang gagawin. hehe.

ubos oras talaga ang pag iinternet. late na pala.  

you know that song from the walt disney movie hercules? the opposite happened to me. saying something out loud rendered it meaningless for me. it was as if i was under a spell for about a week now and it was finally broken when i woke up this morning.

ang laki ng problema ng smart bro. please makisama ka naman!

somebody had those OTH episodes from youtube deleted. waaaaah. i am not even done with season 1 yet!

i'm bored. i tried deleting a few songs from my itunes that i do not listen to anymore and ended up removing only 30 items.

everything's slowly turning back to normal. i love being a hermit and i think i'm going to stay that way for a long time. hehe 

i was planning to watch old OTH episodes on youtube, but somebody deleted them already. bitches. hindi man lang sa kin pinatapos ang season 1. hehe. wala pa ko pera pambili ng dvd9 eh. kaya kung may alam kayong isa pang source, wag nang mahiya, i-share na!  baka meron ding nagtatagong uploaded na videos ng the oc ha. oo nga pumanget na siya after season 1, pero kailangan ko lang kasi ng closure. hehe.

 

A is for age: 23
B is for boyfriend: dr john dorian. haha sorry scrubs kasi ang nilalantakan ko ngayon
C is for career: nurse. ano pa nga ba di ba?
D is for dad's name: gilberto s.
E is for essential item to bring to a party: lipgloss. and cellphone. pamaypay na rin at hard candy para sa mga malalasing at magsusuka hehe
F is for favorite song at the moment: ikaw pala - sugarfree
G is for girlfriend: oh i have lots! too many to mention. hehe
H is for hometown: copenhagen. ung nasa paranaque hehe
I is for instrument(s) you play: none. loser! hehe
J is for jam or jelly you like: not a jam or jelly person, unless may kasama siyang peanut butter pero kung ganon nga, hindi ako choosy sa flavor. ang labo ko
K is for kids: gagayahin ko na lang si angeline jolie, magaadopt ako. pero depende pa yun sa kikitain ko
L is for living arrangements: paranaque with my mom's sister and her family
M is for mom's name: rowena s.
N is for name of best friends: too many to mention. friendly ako eh bakit ba
O is for overnight hospital stays: does night duty count? then 4 or 5
P is for phobias: ung longganisa na nabibili sa palengke. ewww. basta long story
Q is for a quote you like: "you know how people say you can't live without love? well oxygen's more important" - dr house
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: none
S is for secret never told: buntis yung classmate ko sa lalaking may asawa. oops. hehe. hindi naman siguro niya mababasa to. tsaka sobrang kalat na siya sa school so it's not exactly a secret hehe
T is for time you wake up: depende kung ano oras ako natulog at kung may pasok. pero kaninang umaga, 9 am
U is for unique trait: magaling ang memory ko sa useless information, pero pag anatomy na ang pinaguusapan, madalas ako langawin. hehe
V is for vegetable you like: adobong kangkong. hehe
W is for what bothers you the most: pag narerealize ko na kailangan ko na talagang mag review ng anatomy. as soon as possible
X is for x-rays you've had: puro chest. for school
Y is for yummy food you make: don't know how to cook, i just love to eat
Z is for zodiac sign: cancer

lusot videos are up! uploaded them in my multiply, bisita na lang kayo dun www.kikayfetz.multiply.com

orientation na bukas! i am actually looking forward to summer duty, which is weird because i used to bitch about it (a lot!) before. well kasi siguro na-trauma ako sa super boring na holy week na na-experience ko, ung tipong malapit na ko mabaliw sa sobrang boredom, to the point na nagsawa na ko sa kakainternet, tinamad na ko magbasa at magtext. nagcontribute na rin siguro sa enthusiasm ko ung fact na walang lecture pag summer! puro ospital lang! yehey!

ang saya nung birthday ni gino at prech! kailangan ko pa pala ng mas madami pang practice sa pakikipaginuman, natalo ako ni prech siya ang last man standing! haha i'll get you next time prechie!

This is quite interesting, go through it, I 'm not sure whether it
is really a psychology test: but a good one to try !!!

There are 5 Things going on simultaneously which need to be taken care of:

1. The telephone is ringing.
2. The baby is crying.
3. A visitor knocks at the front door or doorbell rings.
4. There is laundry hanging on the line and it begins to rain.
5. The water tap in the kitchen is running.

In what order would you take care of the problems?

Jot down the order in which YOU would handle things, then scroll
down after you've made your decisions.
Each decision will represent how you look at your life.


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PSYCH TEST - Analysis

1. The phone represents JOB/CAREER.
2. The baby represents FAMILY.
3. The visitor represents FRIENDS.
4. The laundry (believe it or not) represents your SPOUSE/PARTNER.
5. The running water represents MONEY/WEALTH.

wala lang, one of tabulas friends posted this psych test on her blog, and nagulat lang ako sa results kasi hindi ko inakala. just so you know, ang naging sagot ko ay 4,2,3,5,1. bakit kamo? umuulan, mababasa yung mga damit ko, babaho sila pag hindi natuyo ng maayos. si baby naman kasi, habang naririnig kong umiiyak siya, ibig sabihin nun buhay pa siya at humihinga. mas malaki ang need ni baby kay visitor, si visitor obviously matanda na siya (obviously compared kay baby that is), kaya na niya sarili niya, makakapaghintay siya ng ilang minuto sa labas ng gate or pintuan or whatever. sa running water naman, impossible naman siguro na magabaha sa bahay dahil dun kasi sure ako na hindi barado ung kitchen sink. haha. and finally the phone, tatawagan ko na lang ulit kung sino man yun, uso na naman ang caller id. hindi ko lang matanggap kung bakit yun ang analysis sa number four. at sa number 5.

anyway, kung hindi ko nabasa yung entry ni chevy for today, hindi ko marerealize na friday the 13th pala. at kaya pala ganun ang naging araw ko. grabe, katakot-takot na kamalasan ang naranasan ko ngayong araw na to, to the point na nung medyo kinagabihan na, nung pauwi na ko, tinext ko yung isang friend ko nang "god hates me. waaaah". haha ang oa. surprisingly though, hindi ako nagalit buong araw. siguro a few expletives here and there, pero hindi yung all out bitch fit. wow. bakit kaya?well siguro kasi sarili ko lang ang kasama ko halos buong araw. mas ok pala ung ganon. sabi na nga ba, ako ang contradiction sa saying na "no man is an island" mas mabilis mawala ung galit ko pag wala akong nakakausap. haha.

ang init. ang hirap huminga. lalo na pag may hika ka kagaya ko.

 

woke up really early today and remembered something. and i felt sad. i guess this is to compensate for my being cheerful yesterday despite the extra long string of bad luck. maybe the negative reaction had to be released from me some time.

anyway, i have finished reading the first wives' club just this morning. finally! i hope i get to finish at least two more books before june. because i think that's when we're going to start reviewing for our board exams and i know during that time i won't be doing a lot of reading for fun.

i am supposed to drop by school anytime after lunch today for the duty schedules (we're supposed to start on monday) but i'm too lazy to go. and i don't have money even just for pamasahe because i spent my last 20 pesos on a small bottle of c2 yesterday before i went home. but i'm bored here at home. so maybe i'm just going to borrow pamasahe from my cousin and go to school anyway, maybe there are other people there who are as bored (and broke!) as i am and we can just tambay. haha so conio talaga. maybe it'll cheer me up.

well not really. i've been awake and out of the airconditioned room for just an hour and i could feel beads of sweat forming in my forehead. so it should have been sunday morning sun is shining brightly. or something like that. i just can't think of a decent title for this entry.

i recieved some news yesterday about duty groupings and stuff, and i found out that i was bumped off to the next group, along with my friend sef. damn.  the group 5 people are nice, i actually like them, i've gotten to know them and have had lunch with them from time time in the past month when we were all working on our thesis (theses? whatever hehe), but still they've all been together for a semester and have more or less known each others' working attitudes and tempers. and with me joining their group. it'll be like joining a whole new group of friends. like pledging into a sorority or fraternity. i just hope they won't let me go through initiations or hazing. haha kidding.

i bought chocquik last week because i have been craving for hot chocolate. and tastes like crap. actually, it tastes like sugar water. couldn't taste the chocolate at all. i know i should have bought milo instead, but chocquik is about 5-10 pesos cheaper. 

i need a new concealer. i wanted to drop by the m.a.c. store in makati, maybe they can tell me how to prevent the concealer from creasing in the under eye area, and at the same time, cover the dark circles and fine lines. m.a.c. is a bit expensive i know, but i just want to meet a makeup saleslady who really knows her stuff.

 

 

 

i'm confused about something.

anyway, i think i have got to stop texting people before i go to sleep because i find it impossible to feel drowsy when i'm expecting a reply. been having troubles sleeping again. even after an 8 hour duty in the ICU in this hot hot weather in a hospital that is so damn far from where i am living.  

damn it i have allergic rhinitis. in this hot hot day. grabe. it's a good thing we had to wear masks inside the ICU, or else i would be sneezing all over the place. oh, i had the opportunity to insert a nasogastric tube (it's a feeding tube, inserted through the patient's nose, all the way to her stomach) yesterday. the staff nurses at MCM rock. they let us do stuff like this hehe.

threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back a name in your
recollection down among a million same
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over when i've looked
right through to see you naked and oblivious and you don't see me
but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the eyes of a
fallen angel eyes of a tragedy
here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded but i see
through it all and see you
so i threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy
oh well apparently nothing
you don't see me you don't see me at all

i love this song. is this about an unrequited crush? hehe

i was out all night with my friends ace, sef, and elai, tambay lang, the four of us sharing two bottles of generoso (heneroso?) and coke, and i didn't get home until 7 this morning. this is actually the latest that i have ever come home from a gimik. we were just chatting all night that we didn't even realize that the sun was already up. sef and i already had two san mig lights each while elai had four before we started the brandy. ace didn't have any because he said he has an exam the next day so he didn't want to drink, but ended up joining in when the 1st heneroso was opened. peer pressure hehe.

anyway, i am so dead later. i don't think my tita knows what time i came home. yet. but i will tell he, because the maids, driver, my lola, and her caregiver all saw me get out from elai's car when she drove me home, wearing the clothes i had on last night when i left.

i tried sleeping earlier this morning but i feel more dizzy and my pulse rate seemed to go much faster when i am lying down. it's weird though coz i don't feel sleepy at all. and the dizziness disappeared once i got up from bed and drank a lot of water.

and some good news, finally. i am not so confused anymore.

please forgive the grammar, i haven't had any sleep. and i think the alcohol is still in my body because i can still taste the heneroso in my mouth especially after i burp. ewww.... 

i must be really getting old because i feel like i haven't made "bawi" from my 24 hour day last friday and saturday. i woke up today after 7 hours of sleep, and i didn't want to get out of bed. i have the overwhelming urge to just stay in bed all day, with my comforter covering me up to my chin. but i have to go to hospital duty today. ugh. it's already 10 am and i haven't fixed the things i was supposed to bring in the hospital.

i don't know what is up with me today. oh well i think i'm just going to be malandi with my eyeshadow today to cheer me up. haven't been putting on makeup lately because it's so hot and i figure i would just be rubbing it off after a few minutes inside the MCM changing room.

my drinking buddies are inviting me to  go to puerto galera with them during the first week of june. good luck. ang dami ko gastos. hindi pa nga ko kumpleto sa pagbayad ng tuition ko eh. tsaka buti kung payagan ako.

damn i really really should start reading my anatomy book like right now. actually i should have started months ago.  

Too often, the thing you want the most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want - meredith grey, grey's anatomy season 3 episode 21

sometimes i don't know what i want anymore.  it's like i would want something, i spend months wanting it, and then when i finally forget about it, that's when this thing would come, and by then i won't able to appreciate it that much anymore because i want a different thing already, a better thing. maybe it's because i absolutely loathe waiting. it makes me lose interest on the thing that i want but do not have at the moment.