dropped by youtube just a few minutes ago and the account of the guy who uploads the heroes episodes was suspended and the other videos are deleted as well. waaaaaah. sana pala pinanonood ko na siya nung wednesday night nung pwede pa siya panoorin. buti pa pinsan ko napanood pa niya. waaaaaaah.
ayan ayoko na tuloy gumawa ng schoolwork. haha gawin bang excuse
i lost my temper again today. ang hirap talaga hindi magalit. lalo na pag pagod ka na at gutom. it's a good thing that my friends are "mature" (in other words, old hehe), they knew better than to make patol. haha make patol. anyway, i got over it all as soon as i got home and had dinner.
may bago ako crush. medyo lang. kasi isa siyang henyo, lahat ng tanong ko nasasagot niya kanina nung nag aaral ako para sa test ko sa cardio. never underestimate the power of advanced reading. isa siya sa mga top students ng batch namin, tapos napaka humble and soft spoken niya. and he's not gay kasi may girlfriend siya. ang hindi ko lang alam ay kung ganun din siya sa skills. kasi madami ako classmate sa section A na oo nga kung mag memorize ng mga concepts sa libro ay daig pa ang xerox machine pero sa skills, bleh sila. intensity 8 ang kamay pag nag iinjection. haha.
wala pang bagong episode ng grey's anatomy till march 15. buti na lang may heroes pa. hehe.
i hate bittersweet endings. movies, books, and tv are kind of like my stress relievers, an hour or two to get away from reality that is called my life, and i don't need another reminder that yes, life indeed sucks and we don't always get what we want.
if you could see me now is about a story of elizabeth egan, who is the most boring, uptight, interior designer there is (she just incorporates blacks, whites, and browns in her designs. and you thought interior designers are supposed to be creative). she had a difficult childhood, and now she is playing mom to her 6 year old nephew, luke. she had no time for fun or leisure or whatsoever. and then one day, ivan appears. well not really, he's an imaginary friend. for some insane reason, elizabeth can see him as well as luke (which is ok coz imaginary friends are common sightings for children). she then falls in love with him. but it's totally psycho coz nobody else can see ivan but her and luke.
anyway, imaginary friends are supposed to disappear after 3 months, or sooner when you don't need them anymore. this story is variation of city of angels. only less tragic and more magical. at least nobody died. hehe. i knew from the start that the relationship is doomed, but a part of me couldn't help but hope that maybe somehow there is a way that ivan can become a real person and she and elizabeth and luke could live happily ever after in ireland. i almost cried in some parts as i neared the ending, but my cousin kept on barging inside the room where i was reading so naudlot siya. it's ok though, coz it somehow makes me feel less sad for the people in the book.
i still like the book though, and i am looking forward to reading the rest of cecelia ahern's works. chick lits are all that i can manage now. maybe i can finally read christ the lord out of egypt during the summer. we don't have lectures in school (thank god!), only hospital duties and that's only thrice a week. yay.
and now for the weekly american idol entry. i like gina, but when i heard the intro of alone, i actually said out loud "waaah don't sing that!" it's because in my opinion, carrie rocked that song 2 seasons ago and nobody else can sing that song better than her except for heart of course. gina did ok though, she did justice to the song, but of course carrie still did a better job. syempre, biased hehe. i love love melinda. i actually have my top 6 girls already: sabrina, jordin, lakisha, melinda, stephanie, and gina. too bad though, i think that antonella will somehow steal a spot for herself in the top 12. maybe we can have 5 boys and 7 girls this year? hehe. how that girl got into the top 24 is still a mystery to me. for the boys however, they were ok. just ok. i couldn't appreciate them yet because the girls were just 6 great girls. but if i were to choose among them, it'll be:phil, brandon, chris s, chris r, the tall black bald guy (hehe can't remember his name), and sanjaya. yes, sanjaya. i love his voice, his smile just creeps me out and he just had to pick the right song. i like leslie too, and if it were up to me, antonella could have gone home before her. i think nobody would forget leslie soon though, after that improvised lyrics she made during her farewell song: "why did i decide to scat? america don't care for jazz" or something like that. haha cut the girl some slack, she was just eliminated from american idol a few minutes ago.
and now back to reality. off to do my report for tomorrow.
hahaha. wala lang. some stupid SOAB deleted only the first of the 5 parts of heroes episode #18. nakakainis, and since i have the rest of the afternoon off (we are on the morning shift for the next two weeks), i decided to look for other shows to watch. that's when i discovered one tree hill. started from the very first episode of the first season. love it! especially the part wherein the guys on the basketball team stole lucas' clothes while he was having his post-practice shower and came out of the shower room with only two basketball balls (hahahaha) covering his front and back side. yum. hahahaha
we're back in southsuper highway medical center and things are pretty quiet on the morning shift. and we are hoping that it'll stay that way. can't say that i like the morning shift though, coz i hate waking up so early in the morning. although it does give me the rest of the afternoon off to catch up on shows like oth and i don't have to sleep late at night because i wanted to catch the american idol rerun.
basta! ang hot ni chad michael murray! tapos ang kuwento! hehe
for some reason, i felt that the summer season officially starts today. it must be because of the heat that i felt when i got out of an airconditioned room after i have just woken up to eat lunch.
i dunno why i felt excited all of a sudden. it's not as if i can go on a vacation out of the country (or at least out of town) or bum around in the house all day watching old episodes of house, csi, oth, or whatever, because we have summer duty to look forward to. well maybe it's because that means that the second semester is almost over.
oh by the way, i inserted an IV line on a real patient's vein (with sir matt's guidance of course)for the first time yesterday! and i think i did a good job because after i have inserted the needle, sir said very good. i wasn't able to finish the job though, coz i can't get a blood backflow, but sir said it's ok, i did well considering it was my first time.
i think i have improved a lot since this semester in terms of clinical skills. unlike last semester, we were pretty much left to be on our own most of the time. well i think it has to do with the fact that sir matt is the only ER nurse on duty that day, but still, we haven't made a booboo yet. still, we were better than the trainees on duty because at least we knew how to do a skin test correctly on the first try (hahaha ang yabang).
this is going to be a sort of hell week. we have exams almost every day of the week this week (except friday) and the grand finale would be the finals exams on med-surg this saturday. lagot!
however, i am still to lazy to study. bye! i've got a date with lucas and nathan scott! hehehe
The end of this semester is so near yet still so far. i'm getting impatient. but then again, i am always impatient.
this week is so bomabarded with deadlines, reports and quizzes, i can't even squeeze in an hour or two of oth. i miss my boys nathan and lucas scott. i also can't remember the last time i have actually used my ipod or listened to music on my computer, until now. that is just wrong.
i have been up since 8 am because i promised myself yesterday that i am going to study for my cardio-pulmonary exam tomorrow but somehow after breakfast, after experimenting with my eyeshadows (haha how else would i learn to put it on correctly?), after a lunch date with ella enchanted on dvd, after experimenting with my makeup again (tried the no makeup makeup look, because i saw the pictures just recently taken with my rle groupmates and man, ang kapal ng makeup ko! kakahiya!), after watching the amazing race rerun because i missed last monday's episode, after having coffee and half a garlic bagel, after all these delaying tactics, i am still too lazy to study. ngayon ko lang narealize na sinayang ko pala ung araw ko. haha.
good luck sa kin mamayang gabi ang dami ko pa talaga babasahin. sana sa harap ko umupo ung classmate ko na laging may leakage ng mga exam (pero ang damot kasi ndi niya shinishare! haha) bukas. haha joke. masama un! hahahaha
nakaka LSS ung kantang sweet escape ni gwen stefani. lalo na ung woohoo yeehoo part. or weehoo? basta un un. haha
and i shall believe 
wala lang, lss lang, i just saw that oth episode, the one after kieth and lucas had a car accident and this was the background music when lucas woke up.
i didn't study for the ncm102 final exams. which would have been a waste of time otherwise because the respiratory system part was almost the same as the ones in the previous sections' midterm exams and we managed to get a copy so we passed. 0% mortality rate for section a and we are damn proud of it, despite the fact that all the teachers hate us so they give us exams that were more difficult then they do on other sections.
i was so happy when i got home last saturday that i had a haircut. hehe joke! no, it was actually a long-delayed errand, i was always busy on saturdays because of duty. i have been wasting a lot of shampoo and conditioner because my hair has reached past beyond my bra line when it's wet. basta, it's a hassle for me to have hair in that length, since i always have to twist it into a bun, and i don't like brushing my hair that much so it's always a tangled mess. my groupmates always laugh at this quirk because i always take the time and effort on putting on makeup but i don't do the same for my hair.
i wanted to celebrate last saturday so my friend girlie (who brought her husband along) and i went to our friend pong's birthday party. we like pong's parties, because the alcohol is bottomless. and this time he didn't disappoint, he bought draft beer instead of bottles of san mig light. the beer tasted so good that only 15 minutes after my butt has warmed the monobloc chair, i was already halfway through my second glass. so needless to say i drank a lot of beer (can't remember how many glasses i had) plus 2 margaritas, and half a pack of marlboro lights (just as when i am cutting down to one stick every other day huhuhu), so i woke up on sunday with a sore throat and a headache. it's ok though, coz it has been a looooong time since i have been that drunk. usually when the girls and i get together we only drink to loosen our tongues and relax. i miss the feeling of being soooo drunk i couldn't think straight. i even hugged our cardio professor who dropped by the party for a while (i was already a bit drunk and he just told us that we all passed the subject, so i was extremely perky and happy! please give me some credit! hehe) and i think he hugged me back. and no it's not weird because we all know he's gay and he actually knows me by name, he remembers me out of all the 500 students that he's handling right now. i think it may have something to do with the fact that last semester i was bugging him almost everyday for a special early final exam because i refused to change my flight schedule. hehe.
ang haba na pala ng entry ko. inaantok na ko tuloy.
it's been a while since i have kept my fone so close to me that i would bring it wherever i go inside the house, even if i would just be using the bathroom. i have quite forgotten how horrible and nerve-wracking it is to wait for a text reply. it still is, apparently. i wanted to turn that damn thing off before i go nuts but a part of me still hoped that maybe, just maybe i will get a reply. so i have turned it on silent mode instead.
it usually takes me years (figuratively hehe) to reply to a text message ever since the novelty of having my own cellphone has worn off, but now that i have experienced waiting and waiting for a reply, from now on, i will try to never neglect my phone again and will tend to it whenever i would hear it beep or ring or whatever.
Maybe I have been here before, I know this room; I have walked this floor,
I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch, love is not a victory march,
it's a cold and its a broken Hallelujah
i have quite forgotten how too much of this can do to my body. or maybe i had way too much to drink last night? oh i dunno, i seem to remember drinking much much more on the weekend overnights/drinking parties at alex's house years ago. my alcohol tolerance level must not be how it used to be anymore. we were only on the 2nd bottle of vodka (toska vodka, the cheap kind hehe) and i was already laughing at the corniest jokes and needed to lean on whoever was sitting beside me at that time. i was pleasantly buzzed when two of our friends suddenly fell from their chairs and couldn't get up. my buzz was gone in less than a second. i distangled myself from whoever i was wrapped around with at that time (i couldn't remember who it was, whether it was a boy or girl, but i'm really hoping it was the latter hehe), and ran over to help one of the girls. we were all nursing students, so we knew what to do in times like this. somebody even whipped out a bp apparatus. haha. and apparently i can still take someone's bp accurately even after a few shots of vodka. haha.
anyway here are the pics from our impromptu drinking party last saturday. it was after our comprehensive exam so we were all wearing our white uniforms. these were the people who i was with last night plus a few more. these are my drinking buddies. we are still far from being BFFs (hehe), but who knows after a few more "sessions"?
with hot mama tess and benj, one of the nicest, sweetest guys i've known. it's a mystery for me why this guy is still single
with mau, the hostess..err host (hehe), and from l-r: ace, me, elie, tess, and benj. my camera fone takes crappy pictures.
so back to the vodka. it didn't give me a hangover like the draft beer and margaritas, but i sure had a hard time sleeping last night because after i changed my clothes and got into bed, that's when my head starts swimming again. i was in bed by 11:30 pm, but at around 2 am, i had to get up because i felt like i was going to throw up, but nothing came out. it was a painful experience though, i almost knelt on the bathroom floor and hugged the toilet bowl. eww.
i hate my phone. i turned it off the whole morning before i go nuts because of waiting for the text that will never come. i wish things could go back to the way they were, when i was perfectly happy staying home, watching OTH or whatever surfing the net all day, and going through my huge book backlog. now i just feel restless. it's as if these things do not interest me anymore. as if i am gonna go crazy if i stay here at home. don't get me wrong, i would still want to watch OTH, but my attitude towards it has been different lately. it's as if i don't care if i get to watch an episode today or not. hay naku.
went dvd shopping earlier. i have been wanting to see dreamgirls for the longest time. faye and i agreed to see this on our movie date, but we had to resked it last week because we both didn't have money, and this week faye can't because of scheduling conflict. i was bored this morning so i decided to visit our friendly neighborhood dibidi supplier. (borrow na lang the dvd from me pepaye or if you really want to see it together sa sinehan i would still love to come with you) aside from dreamgirls, i also wanted to buy stranger than fiction, but they didn't have it on a single dibidi so i had to buy the 12 in 1 thing.
i loved dreamgirls. i was actually teary eyed when jennifer hudson sang i'm telling you i'm not going. even if she did look a bit like a lunatic towards the end of the song. i love the song i am changing. i loved it when lisa tucker sang it on american idol last season and after hearing jennifer hudson's version, grabe panis si lisa tucker! hehe i still can't decide which version i like better though, coz although i loved the simplicity of lisa's version, but i also like how powerful jennifer's vocals are. after the credits rolled in i thought "damn i wish i could sing"
stranger than fiction was a bit harder to digest after dreamgirls, because i had to pay extra attention to the dialog. i love emma thompson's accent! it was a bit strange seeing will ferrel be anything but funny in a movie, but he pulled it off. after the credits rolled in i thought "damn i wish i could write"
i am like the most un-creative person i know.
anyway, i'm pretty much back to my old self now. i do not crave human interaction anymore, am perfectly happy staying here at home. must be because of the 11 other movies in the 12 in 1 dvd. hehehe. sometimes at night, before i fall asleep, i sometimes ask god why he has not given me a significant other , but i found my answer just this evening when my cousin and i were having dinner. we were talking about cousins and relatives of ours who resigned from their jobs here in the philippines because their boy/girlfriends was sent abroad. and in my case the opposite might happen. i do not want a reason to want to stay in the philippines. and besides, who has time for relationships when i've got thesis, duty, lecture, the board exams (even if it's still a year away), OTH, grey's anatomy, heroes, scrubs, and house to tend to? hehe
i overheard our helpers were talking about "palaspas" this morning while i was reading on the dining table. i put my book down and suddenly thought that wow, is it holy week already? not that i am going anywhere during this period. i am planning to stay home and catch up on my reading and OTH, house, and scrubs older episodes. but still i couldn't help but marvel how fast time does seem to fly by when one is not paying attention. and i also realized that i have just wasted a week of my precious vacation time (as summer duty starts on the 8th of april, booo) doing nothing. i wanted to start exercising (starting yet again for the nth time), or start my read-a-chapter-of-the-anatomy-book-a-day project. it's ok though, coz i'm a very impatient person and if time wants to go by as fast as he can, let him. or her. or whatever. maybe somebody pressed the hidden fast forward button i have been asking for for the longest time.
my friends are quite surprised at how for such a "people person", i prefer to do my shopping, errands, and sometimes go to the movies alone. they even call me a loner sometimes, but i correct them everytime they do, saying that i am not a loner, just independent. and i realized i haven't been independent lately. i used to hang out at starbucks sm alone during my breaks, either to study or read a book. now i hang out at the library with the friends i made during the time i was hanging out there. i also now feel self-conscious when i had to eat lunch alone. going to movies alone i can still feel confident about, but sometimes, i also feel self-conscious about it.
i suck at this writing thing. argh
