The Fifth Marauder

ilang araw na kong nahihirapan matulog. hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit. hindi naman ako nagkape bago matulog. maaga ako nagising nung umaga nung araw na yun. pagod ako kasi nagduduty ako tapos wala kaming break sa ritm, mga ilang oras din kaming nakatayo. ang nakakainis lang dun kasi ay hindi ko ma-appreciate ang cold weather kasi hindi nga ako makatulog ng mahimbing.

midterms na next week. yay! pero hindi ako kasing kabado unlike nung prelims kasi mas madali lang topic namin ngayon. lagot nga lang kami pagdating ng finals. madami pala kasing pwedeng maging sakit sa puso at sa dugo. haha.

ang labo ko alam ko. t#$%*&@ naman kasi bakit ang hirap gumawa ng tulog 

hay. wala lang. alam mong sinusuwerte ka pag may pms ka tapos may sipon ka pa, not to mention ilang araw nang parang may nakabarang damp na nakabilog na tissue na singlaki ng fist mo sa lalamunan mo, tapos merong 50-50 chance na magkakalagnat ka. at hindi pa dun natatapos un. midterm week pa. ang saya saya talaga

yikee malapit na valentine's day. ang lamig pa. be safe everyone, sa labas magpaputok, wag sa loob

hay nilalagnat na naman ako. nakakainis lang kasi parang kakagaling ko lang sa doctor last month, at nilalagnat din ako plus asthma attack. buti na nga lang at midterm week ngayon, walang duty. sa saturday na ulit ung pasok ko, pag exam na sa NCM 102. buti na lang madali lang ung topic namin ngayong midterm, hindi ako maloloka sa kaaaral. pangbawi na lang kasi ung topic daw namin for finals ay pamatay, as in sanga-sanga siya, kasi madaming pwede maging sakit sa dugo at sa puso. isama mo na pati ang respiratory system. yikes lagot ako, hindi ko pa naman hobby ang mag advanced reading at mag review kahit malayo pa ung exam.

sayang lang tong araw na to kasi alam ko na hindi ko naman siya gagamitin sa pag-aral para sa test sa sabado. masarap sana mag liwaliw at manood ng sine pero mahirap na baka mag extend tong lagnat at sipon ko hanggang bukas o friday,mahihirapan ako mag aral.

gusto ko itong kanta na to. kahit na sobrang ginagasgas siya ng mga pelikula at tv series.

nanood ako ng one tree hill kagabi sa etc kasi walang ibang mapanood. napaka-hot talaga ni chad michael murray. may karapatan nga siyang maging babaero. hahaha joke. pero seriously, napapangiti ako pag nakikita ko ung hot niyang mukha sa tv screen. ganon siya ka-guwapo. ayan gusto ko tuloy bumili nung compressed dvd set kasi tinatamad akong mag download.

speaking of downloads, grabe after 10 years hindi ko pa rin tapos i-download ung 2nd episode ng heroes. kaya kung sino diyan ung masipag magdownload, pa-copy naman! ata baka meron ka rin ng dr house, scrubs, csi, etc, pa-copy na din!

may kinaiinisan akong tao. binangungot ako kagabi, tapos syempre nagising ako kasi kung hindi eh hindi ko na mapopost tong entry na to hehe, tapos pagkagising ko itong tao kaagad na ito ang naisip ko. hay naku. hindi rin nakakatulong ung araw araw ko siya nakikita kasi classmate ko.

i'm using my cousin's a month and a half old macbook to write this entry, she didn't bring it to school and i'm going to tell her later when she comes home that i have used it for about an hour i promise. hehe. i could open my own laptop, but i'm too impatient to wait for 15-20 minutes before it boots (settles? loads? whatever hehe) and i didn't really want to spend a lot of time in front of the computer today. i just needed my daily internet habit to be over and done with.

anyway can i just say how fabulous this piece of equipment is? it took about 20 seconds for this computer to boot. wow. i'm just not used with the mac os though, it usually takes me a few seconds to locate itunes, the notepad, ms word, etc. but it's ok because i didn't have to wait that long if i wanted to open a certain application. plus the smart bro seemed faster in this machine too. daya. hehe.

i'm bored. this is only my second day of not having classes since it's midterm week and all so therefore no hospital duty. i am supposed to be preparing for the midterm exam on saturday, but as usual i didn't want to. i am not yet THAT bored.  but the good news is, the fever is almost gone. only to be replaced with asthma attacks at the middle of the night. i'm feeling slightly cheerful too. yay.

i actually cleaned my nursing shoes earlier because there was nothing else to do other than study.

i'm really bored. but i am beginning to like this computer. the edges are too sharp though. after a few minutes of typing this entry, my wrists and the area that rests along the edges of this computer are already hurting and they are beginning to have marks where my hands are resting on the said edges. never mind that, i wish i had a new computer too, not as expensive or as nice as this macbook, but just a newer, faster one (compared to mine that is) for a change.

the new hp book is going to be available on july! yay! that would be the perfect birthday gift to myself! well a new computer would be so much better but as i cannot afford it, harry potter and the deathly hallows would be more than ok.  

well am just rambling, in an effort to kill the time before american idol. haven't found my guy/girl yet, but then again it's still to early to decide. besides, they are showing the funny auditions  instead of the really good ones. so no manok yet.

"i refuse to adhere to society's perception of academic aptitude and mental ability."

translation: yoko nang mag-aral.

 

somebody texted me this quote a long long time ago. i think we were all studying for our prelim exams back then and syempre, we needed a delaying tactic so this is the time to forward these kinds of messages to classmates and batchmates who  are in one way or another in the same situation as we are.

 i woke up early on this day, to try to study for the exam tomorrow. like i've said before in my previous entries, pain, perioperative, geriatrics, and death and dying are fairly easy topics, but our professor suggested that we review the said topics on other medical surgical books because it is a departmental exam, meaning other teachers aside from her had a contribution to the exam questions as well.

but i don't want to study yet. hence, this entry was made. again, courtesy of my cousin's macbook. because knowing myself if i used my own laptop, i wouldn't be turning it off until later in the afternoon.  

i had a not so nice dream a few days ago. i was on hospital duty, but i was people i didn't know, which is weird because i know i was supposed to be with my rle groupmates. then somebody died on our shift, it was a patient assigned to me. worse, i knew that person. no we weren't that close, but i will still not say who it is here in my blog. and then that person's friends came to visit her and i was sitting on a bench outside his/her (para anonymous talaga hehe) room and i knew this people as well, and then i told them not to come in because he/she has just died a few minutes ago. the funny thing is, we were not sad because of what had just happened. his/her friends took it quite well and even tried to peek under the blanket covering their friend's corpse but i wouldn't let them. i find it funny because i tend to empathize with my patients a lot. i shed quite a few tears during our first childbirth assist experience when we thought that the baby was not going to make it. i was teary-eyed when we had a patient who was on his deathbed and his wife was beside him, crying, while we all took turns pumping the ambu bag to help the said patient breathe. in my dream it was a person i knew but i didn't even feel sad.

i just hope that this doesn't mean that somebody's going to die on our shift soon. i mean eventually patients will die under my care (not because of my katangahan of course) someday, but i am not quite ready  to do a post-mortem care yet. i might freak out or faint or something.

or maybe i had this dream because we just had our death and dying lecture last monday. i hope.  

well so much for delaying tactics. i gotta go study

i just saw the 2nd part and conclusion of the grey's anatomy "superbowl" episode. and waaaaaah. hindi ko alam kung bakit pero naiyak ako kahit alam ko na ung mangyayari.

anyway, late na namin na-realize ni shari na meron palang heroes sa you tube. yay. alam ko mas maganda kung iddownload kasi hindi putol into 4 parts pero kasi fake ung dsl namin (smart bro kasi hehe), so medyo matagal ang download ng 300mb file. depende pa un kung sabay kami gumamit. yehey. kaka-adik ung heroes! nung sunday nag mini marathon ako tapos late na ko nakatulog, ang aga pa naman ng class ko the next day...pero sana hindi nila pinatay si charlie... sobrang gusto ko ung superpowers niya right now, kasi i am so behind sa mga tinuturo sa school, lalo na sa anatomy!!! ang hot ni milo ventimiglia! i used to hate him a lot dahil siya si jess sa gilmore girls pero ngayon hindi na kasi  bukod sa astig ung powers niya (mangdadaot ng powers ng iba hehe), hospice nurse pa siya! hehe

ang bleh nga pala nung boys' night sa american idol. pero wtf nasa top 4 si sanjaya?!? waaaah wala na si rudy! ang cute cute pa naman niya kahit ndi siya marunong sumayaw. sa girls naman, ang feeling ko na matatanggal ay si antonella and alaina. ang hot kasi nila eh yan tuloy iba ung navote out. hehe. sana talaga hindi pa matanggal si melinda... gusto ko pa siya makita at marinig

madami dapat ako gagawin pero as usual, mamaya-maya pa ko matatarantang gawin un lahat. hehe.

and lastly, nakakainis talaga pag pinag-isipan mo kung ano ang susuotin mo ngayong araw na hindi mo kailangan mag uniform, tapos hindi kayo nagkita nung person na reason kung bakit inisip mo kung ano susuotin mo in the first place. wala lang.