The Fifth Marauder

mrssnuffles

literally and figuratively. hindi pa rin ako tapos mag compress at mag organize nung mp3 files na binigay sa kin ni faye. 5 gigs un, nagrereklamo na ung computer ko, nauubusan na daw siya ng memory kaya kailangan ko magdelete ng ibang files. may way ba na ma-retain ung ibang mga mp3s sa ipod ko kahit binura ko na siya sa pc ko? oc talaga ako sa files ko, plano ko talaga pagtatanggalin lahat ng mp3s from their respective folders, pero tinatamad na ko. basta ang importante maayos sila tignan sa itunes. hehe.

hindi ko pa masyado ma-appreciate ng maayos ung mga binigay ni faye. pero ang cute ni dicta license guy. hindi talaga ako mahilig sa ganung type ng "beauty" sa guys kasi guilty ako sa pagkakasalang "colonial mentality" meaning mahilig ako sa mapuputi at malilinis tignan. pero nagustuhan ko siya. labo. hehe. tagal ko na kasi hindi humaharap sa pc ng ganito katagal. nung thursday ko pa kasi inaayos ung music files.

ayos din ung i am sam soundtrack, ni-limewire ko tuloy ung movie ng di oras! sabi rin kasi nung prof namin sa pedia last sem maganda daw ung movie na un, hindi daw siya tumigil sa kaiiiyak. hehe.  so far 3% na siya, 19 more hours to go!! hahaha nagloloko kasi ung net sa lakas ng hangin kahapon.

grabe ang mga nasa south talaga napaka spontaneous kahit kelan! pero masaya kahapon! hindi namin ma-contact si lance, tapos si alex at louison wala sa mga bahay nila sa south. sayang! sakit ng throat ko pag uwi ko kasi wala kaming ginawa kundi tumawa nang tumawa. sa uulitin guys! we should do this more often!

shet bigla ko naalala as in ngayon lang, may pasok pala ko mamayang 5. vacation mode kasi ang utak ko dahil sa bagyo kuno.  

mrssnuffles

i used to never get them because i hated sundays more. but now i hate mondays just as much. it's just we have this bitchy professor and we have to try to listen to her for about 4 hours every monday. we all hate her. well not really. in fairness to her, she really is a great teacher, i just love her analogies. listening to her is definitely better than reading our books because she's got a bloody good way of simplifying topics that sometime we don't even have to open our medical-surgical books at all because our notes from her class would suffice. but she hates our class, hates us with passion that she goes out of her way to construct these difficult test questions that one would have to do some advanced reading to be able to answer. well i am from section a, which is like the smart people section where almost everyone has mastered anatomy and physiology, and reads the med-surg books for fun. i am lazy, reading the book makes me sleepy (honestly i did try to do some advanced reading but obviously i failed), and i didn't even bother to self-study in anatomy even if i knew that our professor was even worse than, well, uh sir bart from comprog? hehe. at least sir bart was nice.

the only good thing about mondays is that it is my tv night. i come home to amazing race and house md. hehe.

i love nouvelle vague.  i was listening to my ipod before filipino 2 this morning and i didn't want to go to class anymore. i just wanted to sit at the "tambay" area and people watch all day while listening to my new mp3s.

mrssnuffles

or baka tinatamad talaga ako. nagkaroon din ako ng sakit na ganito nung 2nd sem last year. at hindi lang ako kasi sabi nung ka-group kong isa ganyan din daw nafi-feel niya. ewan ko ba, last sem naman eh basta pag duty mabilis ako maligo at magbihis at pag nag alarm na ung fone ko, bangon kaagad, wala nang papindot-pindot pa ng snooze. ngayon kahit gaano ako kaaga matulog, parang labag lagi sa kalooban ko na gumising ng maaga. puro morning pa naman ang duty namin. as in 6-2, 7-3.

napakagastos ko nung isang araw grabe.  bumili ako ng mga bagong ballpen at id holder sa national. inabot ako ng 100 pesos. tapos punta ako sa watsons, bumili ako ng bagong compact face powder. syempre maarte ako, ang binili ko ung may sunblock (kasi nagcocommute ako) at gusto ko ung lalampas dapat ng 500. bakit kamo? kasi may binigay sa kin na coupon ung tita ko na puwede gamitin sa watson's and sm na pagnaka-minimum of 500 pesos ang nagastos on a single item, entitled ako sa 100 peso discount. labo noh? hehe. and besides, ok lang naman mag-invest sa magandang face powder kasi sulit naman, araw araw ko siyang ginagamit.  maybelline pure stay 2 way foundation ung binili ko, at promise siya na ung pinakamura sa mga mahal na face powder sa watson's. actually gusto ko ung loreal true match, pero 800 siya. ok na ko dito hehe.  pihikan din ako sa lipstick and gloss. kasi malakas din ako dito. pero ok lang sa kin gumamit ng "cheap" eyeshadow. years ang aabutin bago ako makakaubos ng isang maliit na lalagyan and syempre for hygienic purposes ndi ko sila puwede itago nang matagal, sayang, itatapon ko lang. besides hindi din naman ako bumibili ng eyeshadow talaga, super bihira kasi nga pinamimigay nila ito ng libre sa US. naging branded tuloy ang mga makeup ko hehe. so anyway, bumili din nga pala ako nung eye makeup remover sa body shop na nakita ko sa isa sa mga entries ni norbelle. 450. naginvest din ako dito kasi mabubulag naman ako kung hindi ko matanggal ang lahat ng makeup sa mata ko. at hindi pa ko tapos ng shopping ko para sa kikay stuff. binigay ko ung liquid concealer ko sa kaibigan kong tisay kasi masyadong maputi para sa kin ung color. gusto ko rin nung shu uemura na eyelash curler, 800-1000 ata yun. hindi lang siya hype, natry ko na siya, ung gf ng pinsan ko kasi meron. kamukha naman un ng lash curler ko (aido, 75 pesos sa watsons. shet yang ang hirap pag 5 minutes away lang ang sm kung san ako nag-aaral) pero mas naglalast ng matagal ung curl sa shu uemura.

prelims na next week. yay. ang haba ng pag aaralan. ang daming sakit!

nasa skills lab kami kahapon at nung nagdedemo ung CI namin kung paano kumutan ang ica-catheter na patient, nang biglang tumugtog ang anna molly sa utak ko. naalala ko kasi ung scene sa morgue. wala lang. haha weirdo.

alam ko dapat ay sinisimulan ko na ang paggawa ng reviewer (it really helps!) pero tinatamad ako. at inaantok. ilang araw na kong gumigising ng maaga against my will.  

mrssnuffles

my computer sucks. ang bagal bagal na niya. kung ano ano kasi nilalagay ko.ang dami masyado music files. pero ayoko sila tanggalin. paano pag nasira ulit ung ipod ko? eh di luluha ako kasi wala ko back up. hehe. gusto ko ng bagong pc. hindi ko siya kailangan, gusto ko lang. typical human being. nakuha na ang gusto kaya iba na ang ginugusto.

tinatamad pa rin ako mag aral. may 2 kami test bukas. at hindi ko pa nabubuklat ang libro at notes ko. lagot! haha.  

mrssnuffles

i didn't realize that christmas is happening in about two weeks already until my tito mentioned it to me last night. been busy doing the sunog-kilay thing. or at least i'm trying to do so. hehe. so anyway, i will join the bandwagon and make a list of the stuff i want and am hoping to get this christmas. who knows? maybe some kind-hearted rich person will read this entry and send me at least one of the items on the list. haha.

1. a shu uemura eyelash curler - i can actually afford to buy one right now, i'm just too kuripot to do so because hello? an eyelash curler that costs 800-1000 pesos?
2. liquid concealer - i don't care what brand it is, as long as it can cover my dark circles and fine lines
3. a new laptop (please kahit ito lang, kahit wala na ung ibang items sa list puwedeng puwede na!!!)
   
4. the pink ipod video case from coach
5. books: diary, lullabye by chuck palahniuk; if you could see me now, rosie dunne, ps i love you by cecelia ahern; jane green's books;
6. a nice big brand name bag. or two. or three. you can never have too many bags.
7. duwop tinted sunscreen from beauty bar
8. d&g light blue
9. technomarine with a second hand so i can wear it to duty
   
10. il leau par kenzo
11. starbucks tumbler
12. m.a.c. GC
13. a passing prelim grade on NCM 102.  i would be very happy with just a 75.
    
14. DVDS: one tree hill, grey's anatomy, house, csi and csi:ny, scrubs
15. drug handbook - yes i need it for school but i didn't want to buy my own copy yet because i am waiting for the 2007 edition to come out. hehe
16. a one-year fully-paid gym membership on that place in alabang.
17. one year supply of hydroxycut to go along with the gym membership (actually forget the laptop, get me this and number 16 instead hehe)
18. mosby or saunder's nclex reviewers. they sell "pirated" copies of these books somewhere (can't tell the name of the place, they might get raided or something and it'll be my fault if thousands and thousands of nursing students are gonna go broke or fail their board exams. hehe), but i'm just too lazy to go there.
    
19. new contact lenses
    

mrssnuffles

no it's not a kris kringle motiff.

i was making my christmas wishlist last night (refer to previous entry) and i was on item #1 at about something past 11 pm when it suddenly hit me that i have a preliminary exam the next day at 8 am and i haven't read through my notes and reviewers yet. haha. it was a very good thing that the said exam is only for filipino2. i wanted to kick myself for being so stupid. i swear i get dumber each day. it's like my brain cell count is depleting and if i'm not careful there'll be none left for my board exams on july 2008. i mean how could anyone forget something as important as a major exam? seriously though, that's what i get for not having a decent planner or palm pilot or a cellphone calendar entry. the test went okay by the way, or at least i hope so. i think my seatmate studied and i copied off from her paper. haha.

so after the test, i went home. instead of preparing for the extra long and extra hard exam on saturday (2 parts, 100 items each, 6 hours, 5 topics, about more than 20 disorders and illnesses, and a gazillion signs and symptoms), i watched sex and city for about  5 hours. i dunno why but i felt incredibly sad that carrie and aidan broke up for the 2nd time. it's jsut that aidan is a nice sweet guy! and he has money! he's useful around the house! he can cook! he can make furniture! he's nice! he's sweet! what was carrie thinking, how could she let this guy go? i think i even cried harder than she did when aidan left. i knew it was gonna happen, i knew that it's going to be mr. big in the end but i just can't help but feel sad. it's just that i like aidan. he's nice and sweet and well you already know what i think. it must be because of the rude, jologs jerks i am surrounded with most of the time. haha.

OT: last monday's amazing race finale was boring. at least my boys won. and the sistahs lost. although they might have needed the money more than the boys did but that's what the sistahs get for being rude and catty and bitchy. and even though my manoks won, i couldn't help but feel a little sad when the episode ended. it's just that the show has been my stress-reliever during mondays. at least i still have house. hehe

OT again: i was watching the mtv aids thing on tv and i think the faspitch frontman looks too cutesy to be a vocalist of a band who plays that kind of music. he looks like a tie-wearing, starbucks-drinking, conio-talking yuppie who works in makati and lives in alabang. haha.

oh and i am updating the christmas wishlist. i've got a few more things to add. hehe 

mrssnuffles

sorry for the huge picture. the text would have been indecipherable had i reduced the size.  i don't know how to put things behind the text cut for tabulas. sadly though, this is not my work, i found this in an lj community called ljsecret which i found totally by accident. the concept is basically the same with postsecret. i think only with lj, you can submit digital images while in postsecret you have to use old fashioned snail mail. i am supposed to be studying for my NCM 102 prelim exam, but i have been browsing through the secrets for the past hour and i can't stop.

anyway, i love this picture. this is the view we saw when my cousins and i went to the top of the sears towers in downtown chicago. i saved this pic and it's my desktop wallpaper now. i know it's going to make me feel sad and homesick whenever i will turn on my computer from now on, but what the heck. i think it's going to be an instrument for motivation for me, to keep on going with what i am doing right now. it'll all be worth it in the end, i know.

and while we are in this topic (haha labo), i was talking to a friend through ym and he asked me whether i knew what i really want to be. it's because when i was in comsci i was whining and now that i am in a totally different field, i am still whining. it suddenly hit me that i really do not what i want. i am in a situation right now wherein i just go with the flow. i don't even make an effort anymore to plan on taking extra lessons on whatever (it's because most people i know right now hate their jobs and are just working so they can earn enough money to pursue what they really want). well obviously because i do not know what i want anymore. i do miss sitting on my ass in front of the computer almost the whole day though, wherein there's an important excuse to do so. now i feel guilty everytime i turn on my computer because well, i am supposed to be studying or doing some advanced reading. i used to want to work in the media industry, not to be an artista or a bold star (hehe), but as a part of the production team. i sometimes want to sing and play the piano like alicia keys or tori amos or armi millare (proudly pinoy!haha), but sadly singers are born, not made. well they can be enhanced, but other than that, i don't think even the best vocal coach in the world can teach me how to sing very well. it's too late for piano lessons now, and besides, i don't have a piano to practice on. i also want to dance as well as usher or justin timberlake (can't think of any female dancers as of the moment hehe) but i can't because,  i just can't. haha. i discovered make-up too late in life. i also wanted to be makeup artist sometimes, but that's only when i watch america's next top model or read preview magazine. besides, had i discovered that i love painting people's faces (hehe) in high school, i don't think my mom would have allowed me go through that career path.

i may not know what i want right now, but one thing's for sure though. i just want to be done with my nursing education and pass the nursing boards. reading my medical-surgical textbook makes me want to scream and rip the said book into little pieces sometimes. like right now.

mrssnuffles

i want to throw up. it has been a few hours since we left our patient (well technically it was my groupmate wena's patient, but i just made usiyoso and helped out with vital signs and bed care because mine was immediately transferred to the ward from the ER), but i can still smell the foul discharge from his nose and mouth. this patient, whom i shall call the bile guy was rushed to the ER because he suddenly collapsed after being woken up from a bangungot episode. he was already having seizures when i got to the neuro area. he had a nasogastric tube because bile has been coming out from his nose. and his breath stinks. i don't know why, but we never asked the residents on duty why this patient is giving off a foul smell. it's not really B.O., it's something else. i didn't even touch him because i was counting his breath cycles and observing the pattern, but the smell is making my stomach turn. i must have washed my hands with soap and water and alcohol a few times already, i have already changed my clothes, but i can still smell the bile guy. the scent totally killed my appetite for lunch, but i had to eat something because i felt like i could taste the bile smell too. i swear the scent is following me everywhere. ugh.

forgive me for being maarte. this maarte girl has been running on 3 hours of sleep and will suffer another day being deprived of sleep because of the #$%#%#$ research/thesis paper. it's been a long day.

my computer is still broken, but it is a good thing i was able to make the wireless thingie work with this laptop that i am using. and thank god i have my ipod, i have my mp3 collection to keep me from going insane.

mrssnuffles

hindi ko alam kung bakit pero hindi ko talaga na-feel na christmas na pala ngayong taon na to. feeling ko nga every year papangit nang papangit ang pasko. lalo na ngayon, kasi nagduty ako ng december 20-22, may researc paper revision deadline pa in between, tapos a few days before that killer prelim exam week. umabot ako sa point na kinailangan ko mag christmas shopping ng dec 22, sakto sa christmas rush weekend. sumakit ulo ko dun, kaya by the time na nagkita-kita kaming "college" (hehe) friends sa mall of asia, gusto ko na kaagad umuwi at ihiga ung sakit. at may gusto lang ako i-share na nangyari sa kin sa bus na sinasakyan ko nung papunta ako sa opis ni faye:

stranger:miss, upo ka o
me:ay hindi po bababa na rin ako
s:sige ingat ka ha
me: ay wait lang, saan po ung chino roces? (kaya actually ako tumayo kahit hindi ko pa sure kung baba na talaga ako para makita kung mcdo na palatandaan ko para sa opis ni faye)
s and another s na nakarinig sa tanong ko: uy ayan na o! baba ka na!
me:sige po salamat, merry christmas!

haha. wala lang natawa lang ako, especially dun sa sige ingat ka part. iba nga naman ang power ng pasko. hindi ko masyado nakita si s2, pero si s1 parang cute sa dilim eh. mukha siyang yuppie. or nagpapanggap na college boy?

anyway so nung 24, as usual may party dito. pero hindi ako masyado lumabas ng kuwarto, nag internet lang ako buong gabi. at nung iniisip ko nang ilipat ung dvd player dun sa kuwartong tinutulugan ko pag alis ng mga bisita, biglang tinawag ako ng tita ko at sinabing andiyan si trina, ang aking childhood kapitbahay. eh di un, kamustahan, tapos may alcohol daw siya sa trunk niya. eh nababato na talaga ako sa bahay, so sabi ko sa kanya, pupunta ako sa bahay nila mayamaya, hintayin ko lang umalis ang mga bisita namin. maaga umalis ang mga bisita namin. mga 10:30 ata. so mga a little past 11, pumunta na ko kila kc. at nawala sa isip ko na, uy pasko nga pala ngayon, so malamang may noche buena silang sarili. so pagdating ko, ang daming bata! daycare center ito! hehe. so hinintay nila ang 12 para magbukas ng gifts.nahiya nga ko kasi wala lang di ba dapat family affair siya tapos umepal ako dun. pero kc's family was really nice, pati ung mga kids, nag-greet at kumiss pa sa kin ung iba ng merry christmas nung 12 na kahit ngayon lang ata nila ako nakita sa buong buhay nila. so ayun mga 3 am we called it a night. at yang ang kagandahan ng pakikipag-inuman sa kapitbahay, madali lang umuwi. hehe. hindi naman ako masyadong lasing, pero kasi napagod ako. kaya maraming salamat KC! you made my christmas day! hehehe

may ka-text nga pala ako kagabi. hindi ko inexpect na sa dami ng tao sa phone book ko, sya ung kausap ko. nakakainis. siguro kasi pareho kami ng ginagawa nung time na un. may virtual cheers pa nga eh. funny kasi pag nakikita siya ng mga kaibigan ko sa school, gusto siya ipagulpi kasi masyado daw mayabang. oh well. hindi din naman kami on speaking terms, pero weird lang kasi ka-text ko siya kagabi.

bad trip sira pa rin computer ko tinatamad akong dalhin siya sa festi. wish ko lang hindi mawala ung mga files ko dun. kakawala nga lang nung smart diary file ko months ago eh,tapos mawawala na naman? waaaaah

ayun. may pupuntahan ata kaming yet another christmas party mamaya. bleh. buti na lang naimbento ang libro, ipod, at cellphone. hehehe

mrssnuffles

grabe sa sobra atang gusto ng utak at katawan ko ng bakasyon, nawawalan na ko ng sense of date and time. nakakatawa kagabi, mga ganitong oras din, at halos pareho din ang suot ko (pambahay na shorts at tshirt) pero iba lang ang kulay, at nagiinternet din ako ng bigla akong tinawag ng helper namin at sinabing may humahanap sa kin sa labas. i was like "huh?" kasi wala naman ako ine-expect na bisita or anything. so paglabas ko nakita ko si kc at tinanong niya ko nang "sama ka ba?" kasi napagusapan namin the night before na sasabay ako sa kanya papunta sa gig ng kaze. so ang nasabi ko na lang ay "shet ngayon ba un? can you wait? bihis lang ako ng mabilis!" buti na lang pinayagan ako kahit mabilisang pag papaalam at buti sinundo ako ni kc kasi dapat eh pupunta na lang ako sa kanila. so ayun, sinundo namin si au and laila sa mocha blends tapos hindi kami nawala papunta sa kala. hehe.

astig! ngayon lang ata ako nakapanood ng tugtog ng kaze sa formal setting talaga. nakapanood na ata ako ng jamming or rehearsal or kung ano mang tawag dun, pero dati pa un. ang galing! grabe si pepaye namin nadadagdagan na ang stage presence! dati hampas sa pata lang ang alam niyan! hehe joke lang lab yu faye! at sa violinist nila. hm... wala ko masabi nung pinapanood ko siya tumugtog, parang naalala ko si hua tze lei nung una siyang nakita na shan tsai na nagvviolin sa meteor garden. hahahaha joke!!! sorry ha, pangatlong drink ko na kasi un (sisihin ba ang alcohol! haha) tapos peer pressure pa nila juay and kc (talagang naghahanap ng masisisi!) kaya ang giggly at fangirly ko. i'm usually mild-mannered and shy around boys. hahaha just kidding about the last bit, pero really i have manners. haha. pero dapat ay masanay na siya sa ganun. sabi nga sa kin ni juay eh "get in line!" haha 

wala lang kasi nung nakauwi kami ni kc mga 3 na ata tapos hindi rin ako kaagad nakatulog kaya nung kinailangan ko pumunta sa school kanina ng 8 am, mukha talaga akong bagong gising tapos naalala ko ung pagpho-photo op ko nung gabi. haha nakakahiya. wala lang. pero nakakapanghinayang kasi ung pic sa phone ko madilim. hintay ko na lang ung galing sa camera ni laila may. hahaha. first time ko sila makasama sa night out and ang cute cute pala ni juay pag nalalasing! hahaha! thanks nga pala ulit kc!

ayun lang. inaantok na ko. hintay ko lang ang grey's anatomy tapos matutulog na ko. may party pa ulit ako pupuntahan ngayon pero hindi ko na ata kakayanin. tsaka hindi na siguro ako papayagan. feeling ko panay ang pag uwi ko ng late eh.

mrssnuffles

it's not really fair. in dlsu, classes resume on january 8. ours, on the 3rd. hence, it's friday, i got invited to this thing at some comedy club with kc and the others, and yet i couldn't go because we had to do some major revisions on our research paper. apparently our thesis adviser and we are not on the same page therefore we had to rewrite everything. or rather, i had to. i love my groupmates, really, i owe them a lot, but they really are sorta useless when it comes to research papers. puro utos, puro opinyon, puro salita, wala namang ginagawa. well they did fix the format and shit, but that was it.

anyway, i bought myself a grey's anatomy dvd set for christmas just this afternoon. yay. no more feeling sad on wednesdays if i have missed out an episode on star world.

i've been feeling more sluggish than usual. it must be because of all the christmas brownies, cakes, and cookies that i have been eating. hahaha. damn it.

i just got my computer back from the shop at festi yesterday. for some reason the guy there couldn't tell me what was wrong with my laptop in the first place because my cousins just staggered drunkenly into the store to meet up with me and they were being rowdy. one thing's for sure though, i would either have to get rid of some files or get a new computer. or an external usb hard disk. looks like we know what imma gonna buy with all the christmas money i have collected. damn i didn't want to spend it all in one go

i know i should be in a better mood as my cousin just bought me a grande caramel macchiato and i have just devoured 4 episodes of grey's anatomy. i hate school. for the nth time i wish i am done with it already. they say school is easier than work, but can't you realize that you can leave your work at the office when you go home at night (or morning, depends on what shift you are in), while as a student you do not only have to sit on your ass through boring lectures but do homework as well?

enough whining. got work to do. argh.  

mrssnuffles

i was really going to work on the research paper i have posted the previous blog entry, unfortunately that was when our dsl effed up. i waited for about two hours, got rid of the stuff i don't listen to anymore on my music library, edited album and song names on some of the songs i have somehow missed on my itunes, updated my smart diary (which involved a lot of expletives because the damn internet is effed up!), and still nothing. so when my cousin asked permission if she could watch the grey's anatomy dvd without me, i ended up joining her because there really is nothing else i could do. all my thesis files are backed up on my email (thank you com sci for drilling the always back up concept on my brain), and there was no way to retrieve them. well i could call my groupmate and ask her to bring her laptop over as it was the one i was using when my laptop was in the shop, but it was already late at that time. and besides, i just didn't want to. hehe.

it was a good thing too coz i love love love grey's anatomy! this morning i told my cousin to hide the dvds from me because i might not get some work done.

the internet is still effing up, but at least we have signal from time to time. it's frustrating as well, but at least i already have my old thesis files. researching for rrl's going to be a bitch though...