The Fifth Marauder

mrssnuffles

Name ten of life’s simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

I think faye and a few people in my LJ friendlist has already done this thing, but ironically i was feeling crappy today and was bloghopping when i found this and i really really need to count my blessings more than ever nowadays... in no partiuclar order:

1. forwarded jokes from the people who probably spent most of their cellphoned lives being  ripped off by globe and are now returning the favor by abusing the unlimitxt promo and texts about at least 3 jokes a day to every globe subscriber in their phone book.

2. mp3s. whether downloaded or ripped from an actual cd or copied off from another friend's pc, i love them.

3.  our new brother whose name is smart bro. yay we finally have dsl. now if only my pc would stop f**king up...

4. make up, particularly concealer and lip gloss. it's not for beautifying myself anymore, it's for self-esteem. hehe.

5. administering IM injections.

6.  grey's anatomy, house, scrubs, amazing race, american idol, kim possible, that's so raven, phil of the future, the suite life of zack and cody, csi, and sige na nga, pbb na rin. don't like the teen edition too much though.

7. weekly household meetings. it's like free therapy

8. sm shawarma, pad thai, and takoyaki balls. mura na, masarap pa!

9. seeng john pratts look a like. he may be gay, but i don't care, i just love looking at him.  even if i still don't know his name.  seeing all my crushes in school period. actually discovering an actual cute guy in school. may hope pa pala. haha

10.  a huge backlog on unread books. it means i won't be bored for a really long time

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and lastly, i want to leave you with a few words from mr. chuck palahniuk:

"it's hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. we have no scar to show for happiness. we learn so little from peace." 

[from diary] 

mrssnuffles

just got my first set of scrubs yesterday and it's exactly the same color as what dr bailey and the other surgical interns wear. yay. wala lang kakaaliw lang. i actually like it better than my new yuck of a white uniform with matching white stockings. yuck.

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

-home, michael buble

wala lang. i wanna go home.  ayoko na maging babae! ayoko na ng pms!!! waaaah

mrssnuffles

yikee may cap na. haha. we had our capping and pinning ceremony last friday. i know it's supposed to be a rite of passage for nursing students, that attending this ceremony and accepting the cap (pins for boys. lucky bastards) means we are accepting the responsiblity caring for the sick. or something like that. yeah right. 558 students were capped and pinned and i bet 80% of us were taking up nursing because we are poor and we needed to go someplace else to earn more money. anyway, it was a nice ceremony, and i saw that the girls sitting beside me got teary eyed. and me? i kept on fidgeting in my seat because the new uniform had many many layers (it was a hot day) and i wanted to rip the white pantyhose off my legs because it's making me itch so bad. 

anyway, that little white cap above my head means that i will now start doing hospital duties. scary. hindi pa ko ready. in fact, i friggin need to read my anatomy book from cover to cover again because i seem to have forgotten everything i have learned from that subject. well i didn't learn anything to begin with. haha.

i used to love wednesdays. all the good shows are crammed into this particular day. i look forward to this day more than i do on fridays or saturdays. my wednesdays used to be a mess of episodes of american idol, amazing race, csi,  and grey's anatomy. sometimes even pbb.  ngayon natapos na ung seasons nung iba at csi na lang ang natira. waaah sana makuha na ng star world ung new season ng grey's anatomy anytime soon. nakakamiss silang lahat lalo na si dr. bailey hehe

hindi ko alam kung natutuwa ako sa beauty and the geek or not. but that guy brad? he's cute!! he's a cute geek! he's even cuter when he's wearing glasses. i even googled what "mensa"means and according to the official mensa website:

Mensa was founded in England in 1946 by Roland Berrill, a barrister, and Dr. Lance Ware, a scientist and lawyer. They had the idea of forming a society for bright people, the only qualification for membership of which was a high IQ. The original aims were, as they are today, to create a society that is non-political and free from all racial or religious distinctions. The society welcomes people from every walk of life whose IQ is in the top 2% of the population, with the objective of enjoying each other's company and participating in a wide range of social and cultural activities.

and even more tv trivia: gray's anatomy is sort of THE bible for med students in the us and uk.  

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haha inayos ko na ung pic sa wakas para nakikita na siya. well wala naman siguro makakapansin 

mrssnuffles

nakupo lalo na pag pms. grabe. ang hirap talagang hindi magalit. lalo na't mainit at naka stockings pa ko. haha. grabe ayoko na kasing magalit eh. promise!

damn it's been weeks since american idol season 5 has ended, but i've still got the mcpheever! i love somewhere over the rainbow! sabi nga ni simon (although natatandaan ko kay ayla brown nya sinabi to), "sometimes less is more". basta i can't stop listening to that song, and even if everybody said it sucked, gustong gusto ko din ung i have nothing. lalo na ung part na "i won't hold it back again this...passion inside" hindi ko din alam kung bakit. pero hinid dahil sa wardrobe malfunction nya ha hehe.  syempre, wag natin kalimutan ang since i fell for you. that was the song that gave me the mcpheever.  ironically though, kahit gusto ko ung think sa latest american idol cd (syempre biased hehe), ang pinaka nagustuhan kong track dun ay ung kinanta ni melissa mcghee and elliot yamin. actually ayos ung buong cd.. hindi ko pa nga lang naririnig ung kay kellie pickler kasi hindi ko tlaga sya pinirata kasi ayoko sa kanya. haha. ganda talaga ng boses ni mandisa. sige na nga pati na rin si paris. sabi nga ng mommy ko (grabe religious sa panonood ng american idol un!!), kung naging kasing sexy lang ni mandisa at kasing ganda ni paris si katharine mcphee (tama ba ang sentence construction ko?), baka nauna pa si kath sa kanila na matanggal. speaking of my mommy in relation to ai, kinukuwento nya na naiyak din daw siya kagaya ni paula nung kinanta ni elliot ung a song for you. pero gusto nyang manalo ay si chris. my mommy likes her rockers kasi last year naman ang manok niya ay si constantine tsaka si bo. haha.

anyway so much for american idol. paano bang hindi magalit? paano bang hindi magmura?  araw-araw ay binibigyan ako ni lord ng tests para humaba naman ng kahit konti ung pasensya ko, pero i always fail everytime. hay naku.

mrssnuffles

Parked car
This night sky
Makes city lights shine like diamonds
our song plays on the radio.

We’re living it up
Make this night ours
We own the world
I wish this lasts forever
Alone with you tonight
Further in you feels so right.

I’m giving it up and just a little more
This heartfelt leap I surrender
With arms raised tonight.

Drive me away
cuz the night just feels right
take me away with you tonight
anywhere with you.

Our song plays on…
Parked car, night sky
Alone with you tonight…

i know this song is quite old already. naririnig ko sya sa radio pero hindi ko lagi maabutan ung title. na-discover ko lang sya nung monday, nasa duty kami hindi ko dala ung ipod ko so naki epal ako sa mp3 player nung groupmate ko kasi wala namang dumadating para manganak (maternity clinic kasi ang duty namin), tapos bigla ako napa-shriek kasi narinig ko bigla to.  wala lang gusto ko lang i-share. haha.

saka na ung duty stories. tinatamad ako magtype

mrssnuffles

last night, a few minutes before our duty ended, we were informed that a call came in and that the woman who was supposed to give birth anytime during this week has been experiencing contractions and are on their way to the clinic as we speak. yikes. i was scheduled to be on deck, meaning i am supposed to choose between handling (catching the baby as the mother expels it), cord care (cutting and cleaning the umbilical cord as well as making sure that the placenta comes out next after the baby), or assist (staying beside the mother, without any gloves on, checking the vital signs and fetching whatever the mom needs, like water, towel, a knife so she can stab her husband hehe). i immediately chose assist of course. although handling would be cool, i feel that i am not ready for it yet. i wouldn't want to duck out of the delivery room again like the last time i observed a minor surgery. she is scheduled to give birth at around 2 pm, the same time our duty starts. lucky for me because that's one less case i have to complete. i am terrified though. i didn't sleep that well last night because i don't know if i could stick it out this time. i kept on thinking i might do something stupid. like forget how to take the mom's bp. or fail to take her pulse rate because mine is racing like crazy. or worse, faint or throw up right there in the delivery room.

anyway, on other things, i found out from my groupmate that yesterday kim and gerald (of pbb fame) were there in our school, because they were taping a show or something. bad trip. i am not really a die hard fan, and i don't like kim, but i really wanted to see gerald because he's so cute. and i'm quite surprised to find out that he's tall (my groupmate actually dropped by the school before reporting for duty). and that kim is a snobby biatch. and that girl mikki is the nicest one of them all.  

 oh well i'm going to eat a light lunch and stuff 2 halls candies in my mouth before going into that delivery room later. waaah. wish me luck

mrssnuffles

my first childbirth assist was successful!! at take note, hindi ako nasuka or nandiri or whatever. astig.

well kasi ganito un. the midwife at the lying-in told us that she's supposed to give birth at 2pm. 8:30 na hindi pa sya dumadating. grabe na ito. eh ang hirap talaga kumuha ng case so sabi sa amin mag OT na lang kami, hintayin na lang namin until manganak si mommy preggy (hindi kasi namin alam ung name talaga nung buntis kaya un na lang ang tawag namin hehe). shit wala akong dalang extra underwear, toothbrush, etc. actually lahat kami hindi prepared.  so mga 9:00 umalis na ung mga groupmates namin na hindi naka-deck sa delivery room tapos kaming natira ay nagpalit na into scrubs. buti na lang kasi kung pinag-assist ako in my white stockings and skirt, pucha away na to!! haha. so ayun. well may kama namang binigay sa min pero hindi rin kami makatulog kasi iisa lang ung electric fan tapos 4 kami sa kama. may 2 pang bed na extra pero kasi walang fan dun kaya nagtiyaga kaming magsiksikan dun sa bed kung nasaan kami. buti na lang payat sila. hehe. ang ingay nung isang ka-group namin nakaka irita ung boses so para hindi ako ma-bad trip sa mundo, kasi nga di ba, ang init, ang sikip, gusto ko na maligo, inaantok na ko, pagod na ko, tapos dadagdagan pa niya, nag ipod na lang ako. ung isang groupmate ko kanina ang gumagamit ng ipod ko, eh ang pinapakinggan nya pala ay ang buong album ng up dharma down, so ayun na rin ang pinakinggan ko. astig pala sila. matagal ko nang na-upload sa ipod ung songs nila pero hindi ko pa napapakinggan ng isang upuan. astig talaga. relaxing sya. bung gabi, hanggang sa mag labor si mommy preggy ng mga 2:30 am, paulit ulit lang ung album.

so 2:30 nga nag labor si mommy preggy. hindi na ko nagkaroon ng chance na buksan ung hall's honey lemon na nasa bulsa ng scrubs ko kasi nilalagay ko pa ung buhok ko sa ilalim nung cap (kung nanonood ka ng grey's anatomy, ung suot nila sa ulo nila pag nasa OR sila) at inaayos ko pa ung mask ko kasi napakalaki nya,imbes na mula ilong ko pababa lang ang matakpan, pati kalahati ng mata ko nadadamay.  so ayun. pagpasok ko since assist lang ako, hindi ako naka gloves. inutusan akong hawakan ung right hand ni mommy preggy, naka dextrose siya kasi, tapos sa sobrang sakit ng tiyan niya, tinataas nya ung kamay nya tapos baka matanggal. kailangan ko rin bantayan ung drip nung IV fluid (ung liquid thingy sa dextrose), kailangan hindi sya tumigil at palitan bago maubos. pinupunasan ko rin ung pawis nya sa buong mukha nya, inaayos ung hair nya pag pumupunta na sa mukha nya kasi ang likot nya at all around utusan pag may kailangan kunin sa labas ng DR. grabe nakakaawa si mommy preggy. tapos ung nanay nya argh gusto ko na palabasain ng DR kasi napaka antipatika. tama ba ung hirap na hirap na ung anak mo sa paglabor, tapos papagalitan mo pa? so anyway, maya maya gamit ang nokia 1110 nya (basta ung may flash light!), binuka ni maam rosie (ung midwife) ung vagina ni mommy preggy tapos pinakita sa min ung ulo ni baby. i know it sounds gross, pero promise na-excite kami nung nakita na namin!

6:00 na. hindi pa rin lumalabas si baby. lagot. pag nag 8 am na, kailangan na siyang itakbo sa hospital at c-section na. nakalimutan ko itanong kung bakit, pero basta ganun un. haha. sigaw na nang sigaw si mommy preggy ng "mommy ang tagal!" at ng "rosie wala pa ba?" at basta simpleng sigaw lang. nakakaawa sya promise. tapos nung mejo lumabas na ung noo ni baby, frantic na si maam rosie. kailangan sunod-sunod na ung pag-ire ni mommy kasi masu-suffocate na ung baby. habang may isa pang midwife na tinutuhod na ung tiyan ni mommy in a downward direction, para matulungan nya na mailabas ung baby. kami namang mga naka duty, hawak ung kamay at paa ni mommy kasi nangangawit na sya, at nagsilbing cheering squad para kay mommy. ayan na nakikita na namin ung noo. bilis mommy!! sigaw na kaming lahat, habang sige pa rin ang pagtuhod sa kanya nung isang midwife. hindi ko alam kung bakit pero naluha ako. 3 times nang ginugupit ni maam rosie ung vagina ni mommy para lakihan ung butas. ouch. parang gusto ko humawak sa sarili kong vagina nung naririnig ko ung pag gupit. hawak ko ung leg ni mommy, mina-massage ko kasi nangangawit na sya, habang nagdasal ako ng angel of god for her and her baby. syempre hindi ko pwede ipakita na naiiyak ako kasi baka kabahan sya or something. lahat kami nagpplead na sa kanya na umire sya. natatakot na ko para kay baby. first case namin to! kelangan lumabas siyang buhay!! go mommy go!!! sigaw na kami ng sigaw. saktong tumungo ako para punasan ung luha ko, biglang napa-sigaw ng "SHIT!!!" nang malakas si maam rosie. lumabas na si baby! pero pag labas nya, ung umbilical cord nya nakapulupot sa leeg nya about 3 times. pucha hindi umiiyak si baby!!! nooo!!!! hinablot ni maam rosie kay malika (ung isang ka-group ko na kasama ko sa loob ng DR) ung pang suction ng ilong ni baby at sinigawan sya na i-massage ung chest at tumulong na isupport ung ulo. si mommy naman, siguro hindi nga nya narinig umiyak ung baby nya, umiiyak na sabay paulit-ulit na pagsabing "sorry baby!!! sorry!!!" pinigil ko ung iyak ko tapos tinulungan si malika na hanapin ung clamp (nataranta na sya,sa dami ng gunting sa tabi ng kama, hindi na nya alam kung ano iaabot nya), at si rica naman ung tissue (ung isa ko pang kasama), ginupit na ang cord ni baby at inilipat na sya sa crib sa ilalim ng drop light para hindi sya malamigan. si mommy sige pa rin sa pag sorry sa baby nya, sa pag iyak nya, hindi nya narinig na umiiyak na finally si baby. yehey. grabe. natapos din. it's a boy! a tisoy boy! happy birthday baby! june 28, 2006 7 am.

habang sila malika at rica ay inaabangan  matapos ang pag bleed ni mommy, ako naman ay binuksan ung door at tinawag ung poging-poging daddy ni baby. promise ang pogi nya hehe. ang bango pa. so ayun. nung nakita nya na ok na si baby, pinuntahan nya si mommy. tapos si daddy pinicturan si baby, si mommy, pati kami hehe. yehey kasama kami sa photo album. i hope nakakatawa nga, nung pagsabi ni daddy na "picturan ko kayo kasama si baby" binaba ko ung mask ko para makatawa ako ng maayos pero ung 2 kasama ko hindi. haha. landi. pero hindi pa rin tumigil si mommy preggy's mommy (na pwede ko na tawaging lola ngayon bwehehehe) sa pagiging antipatika. tama bang sabihin sa apo nya sa harap ni mommy preggy ang words na "uy ang apo kong guwapo, kawawa ka naman pinahirapan ka pa ni mommy mo! ang liit liit mo na nga hindi ka pa nailabas kaagad" grabe talaga nakakainis.

so nung ok na lahat, nag hugas kami ng kamay. tapos nakita ko natalsikan pala ako ng dugo. may mantsa ung scrubs ko. eh ayoko na suotin ung uniform ko kasi ayoko na mag stockings, at wala pa kong tulog, so wala na ko pakialam. nilagyan ko na lang ung stain ng alcohol at umuwing naka scrubs. bumili ako ng longganisa meal sa jollibee (wala lang nagugutom ako eh), umuwi, nagshower, kumain, at natulog. amazing kasi nung nasa loob kami ng DR, lahat kami gising na gising, pero nung pauwi na kami dun namin na-feel ung antok.

ang tagal naming hinintay si baby! pinag report pa rin kami for duty that day, so hindi ako nakatulog ng matagal. pagbalik namin, nakita namin si baby, napaliguan na at medyo ok na ung shape ng head nya (medyo na-deform kasi pinagkasya nya ung sarili nya sa vagina ng mommy nya) worth it ang pagod namin. ang cute cute nya grabe. nung paalis na nga kami, nag bye pa kami sa kanya. wala lang iba lang ung feeling na somehow eh naging part kami ng buhay nya kahit alam ko na kahit magkita kami sa daan or something 10 years from now eh hindi naman namin makikilala ang isa't isa. feeling naming 3 naka-deck sa DR na first baby din namin un. binigay ko ung email add ko kay pogi daddy bago kami umalis sana maalala nyang i-send ung pics. para may remembrance di ba.

last day na rin namin sa lakeside lying-in that day (nagpapalit kasi kami ng clinic and clinical instructor every two weeks). nakakalungkot. kahit nag bantot at ang init sa clinic na un, mami-miss namin un. sabi nung isang ka-group ko na umulit ng NCM 101 (ung subject na dinu-dutihan namin), first duty kasi namin at first case ever kaya ganun. sana nga. hindi naman puwede ung umiiyak ako every time may manganganak at magpapalit kami ng site and CI. at kasi iyaking bata ako kaya ganun. haha.

 and lastly, bago ko tapusin ang napaka habang entry na to, gusto ko lang i-share ulit na ang ganda talaga ng songs ng up dharma down. at ung isa ko palang groupmate sa manresa din nag aral, at take note, pareho kami ng yearbook! kasi nung grumaduate ako ng high school, grumaduate naman siya ng grade six. grabe na ito. ganun na ba ko katanda? sa bugay ung isa ko namang friend, classmate ung mga ka-batch ng anak nya, kasi tinatanong siya lagi kung kilala nya ito pag nakita sa name plate ung last name nya. haha. mas malupet un. haha.

hay naku titigilan ko na nga to. may test pa ko sa pediatrics bukas hindi pa ko nag aaral. ayoko na muna manganak. masakit pala. haha labo