The Fifth Marauder

i have been watching religiously since season 5 started and it's about time i make an entry about it and talk about my "manoks" this season. i am doing this because it's so frustrating, i can't talk about the show to anyone in school because it seems like i am one of the very few who really makes time or watches it almost as much as the judges or ryan seacrest does. hehe. when the top 24 was chosen, i already have my version of the top 12 and hopefully it'll come true which i highly doubt but hey, we never know right?

i have watched this show as often as i did last season, but for some reason i didn't have immediate faves this year like i did with lindsey, carrie, nadia, and anwar. although there are people in this season that i did remember from their first auditions, i didn't have a favorite. i think it's good because i was not that biased when i watched the top 24 show because i actually sat through every performance. last season i tuned out all the other guys and girls and would only pay attention when my manoks were performing. this year though, i was able to appreciate each and every performance.

the girls:
1. katharine mcphee - i am so lesbian for this girl. she reminds me of sophia bush (must be the hair!), if the one tree hill star gained about 20 pounds, lost the dimples, and can make goosebumps appear all over my forearms everytime she sings. now i wish my mom was a voice teacher too hehe.

2. mandisa - nothing i can say much for this girl but so far i am loving her performances. she can do heart, she can do country, and we know she can definitely do r&b (because she's a gospel singer and both genres are similar in some way), i wonder what she's gonna do next?

3. melissa mcghee - i love her voice! it is so similar to lindsey cardinale's whom i really really loved last season. too bad she won't make the final cut because she's not as likeable as kellie pickler.

4. lisa tucker - i think she is good but she is ridiculously over pimped. i loved it when she did "i am changing" but when i listened to the mp3 again, i think she sounded ordinary. well i guess it really is amazing to be that young and tiny and have that big strong voice at the same time. nevertheless, she will sail through the top 12

5. ayla brown - this is the type of girl i would want to be in my next life. she's tall, athletic, smart (because politician's kids are supposed to be!), and can actually sing. however, she's too robotic and her performances are too polished. but i would still want to be her.

6. paris bennet - like lisa, this girl is overpimped as well. i loved her audition more than her hollywood performances. but there's no denying that this girl can sing. i just don't like her that much hehe.

7. kellie pickler - i admit, i liked her during her audition, but she pales in comparison to the other girls. but i think she will still make it to the top 12 because she's so damn likeable. i can't really hate her as much as i did with anthony fedorov (hehe) even if her voice is way below ai standards.

8. kinnik (i forgot her last name!) - she's going home on thursday. i actually like her but... i dunno can't really explain it

and for the boys:
1. taylor hicks - somebody posted a picture of him in a forum when he was 19, when his hair was still black, and he looks a little like george clooney. if he still looked like that, he would have it in the bag. i've admired him since his audition and i don't even mind that he sometimes moves like he has some mental problem or something and the excess whoo-ing and yeah-ing everytime he performs.

2. elliot yamin - i wonder if it's true that the closest thing he had to a formal voice training was in a karaoke bar and he does not vocalize.  i don't care though, coz i love his voice. i loved him when he sang that stevie wonder song, and loved him even more when he sang moody's mood for love. hay. makalaglag panty. just don't look at him when he performs because he's not too cute hehe

3. will makar - i do know that david is cuter, but for some reason i am more drawn to will. i love his voice and hopefully he will make it to the final 12.

4. kevin covais - yes, the guy needs to go to high school and take up more voice lessons. yes, the guy has a lisp. and yes, he is going home on thursday. but i don't care, i still love him anyway because he's so cute. this must be how kellie pickler's fans feel about her. hehe

5. chris daughtry - i liked him too during his audition but my fondness for him is slightly deteriorating with every hollywood performance. i don't know about everyone else, but he always sounds like he's about to cry because he's so mad. haha. it's funny because that was the thing i loved about chad kroeger, but not on him.

6. ace young - the pretty boy. i do think he's hot and he can sing, he it just rubbed me the wrong way when he sang a westlife song during his audition. i hae to admit though, that father figure was hot and he completely murdered if you're not the one. and to think i actually hate that song!

7. don't really care about gedeon and bucky. as long as kevin stays. and both of them goes home. hehehe

i hope i didn't ruffle too many feathers with this entry, but i am entitled to my opinion and so are you.

(waaaah ang hirap mag english!!!! hahaha)

i have been wanting to post this entry since i went home last sunday afternoon, but i am distracted by school and american idol and pinoy big brother so i can't seem to get myself to finish it.excuse my english, it has been a bit rusty ever since i have finished the COPAR. hehe. warning: it's a bit long. hmm...wow this is a record for me! 2 long posts on the same day!  so anyway, here it is:

march 5, 2006 3:00 pm

grabe i still can't put into words how this weekend retreat has affected me. i just came home from an sfc reatreat (which started yesterday morning) and i've still got this peaceful smile on my face even if i have been doing schoolwork for the past hour.

anyway, the retreat is about the single person and his/her emotions. or something like that. god must have known that i needed this so much because i was able to get all those little problems solved prior to the thing. anyone who has known me longer than 3 months can say that patience is not one of my virtues. and this was greatly tested when i started school again. i would rant to anyone who would care to listen how much i hated the fact that i was taking up nursing. i hated everything connected to it; from the school, to the uniforms, to the professors, to the books, to the subjects, to the practical exams, to the people i am with (those who aren't my friends) everytime i go to school everyday. it's such a big task for me to get up every morning and put on my horrible all-white uniform, brave the traffic in evacom, and study something i do not feel the tiniest hint of love for. that is why every little thing i had to do for school, may it be something as small as an earth science report or something as big as a COPAR (the nursing version of dbapdev  or syanad or one of them comsci subjects we had to submit a long paper for and ends with a defense), i complained about it incessantly. i would wait practically the last minute to do it, and then i would bitch about it because i had to submit stuff that is half-baked and then i would hate myself for procrastinating because i know how easy that piece of homework is and i could have done so much better. i lost my temper and cried tears of frustration so many times the past year that it has given me a slight headache and stomach pains on some mornings. it also took a toll on my period; i used to have it regularly and for the first time in my life since my menarche (that's the med term for first period just so you know ) i missed a month. it was a good thing i wasn't engaging in premarital sex relations prior to that month or else it would have added to my stress as well, because i would think i might be pregnant.

i did try not to show it when i am with people, because i know i am being such a baby about this thing. i am constantly being reminded everyday when i go to class that i am still lucky compared to the people around me because i didn't have to write promissory notes whenever i would have to pay for tuition or worry where i would get the money for the requirements needed for school. i even had a big fight with my mom that she did not call me for more than a month. i hid this all inside me, with only my smart diary as my companion and shock absorber.

back to the story, i had financial problems a week before the retreat. my ipod and laptop has decided to wage a welga on me and refused to work. i needed my computer because i had to submit a bunch of papers. one of my professors also told me that i have to go back to the assigned community on saturday which actually is the same day as when the retreat begins. but i was able to fix both problems, as what i have said before, He knew how much i needed to attend the retreat. and then sandee (my household head) tells me that she won't be coming to the place until 5 pm. the meeting time was supposed to be 7 am. i have never attended an sfc thing without at least one of the girls in my household with me. i have to admit i'm a little shy around the other sfc people. don't get me wrong, they're nice people. but somehow, somewhere along the year i was out of school, i lost my social skills. i also feel like that they are somewhat on a whole different level than i am. just from the way they do the worhip things, i mean, i hear them pray and i can't imagine them (especially my household heads) being in the same position as i am at the moment in the community. but the night before i just decided that if i didn't have someone to talk to, i could just read the book i will be bringing (the rescue by nicholas sparks. it's hard to find a book that is "suitable" for the weekend because we like our books with sex, violence, and profane language  in here hehehe)or listen to my ipod. i guess like what the judges in american idol are forever telling the finalists, i had to get out of my comfort zone so i could do great things. i was quite lucky to have been placed in the vehicle with tess, whom i met just weeks ago. we became default partners and we were almost joined at the hip the whole weekend.

to sum it all up, i learned a lot of things during my weekend. i have had retreats before, but somehow this one affected me more than others. maybe because i think i haven't had a retreat since high school, and i am a wee bit more mature now (well not really, i love to watch the disney channel shows! hehe). or perhaps because this retreat happened just the right time in my life when i needed it the most. even if the place we stayed was less than an hour from alabang town center, i swear it was farther than that! for the first time in months, i felt relaxed. i loved how i felt when i was at that place (i forgot the name. oh wait, i never asked! hehe), listening to the talks, i felt like i can do anything, that i can be patient, that i would not throw another hissy fit ever again. i was actually afraid to go home afterwards because i know that it'll be back to reality again, my patience will be tested for the nth time.

i can really see the change in me. i used to say bad words in like every other sentence, but now i make a conscious effort to stop myself before i do so. well there hasn't been a great big test for my patience yet, but i was actually indifferent to the little things that used to be the cause of my hissy fits. i am not a hypocrite; i am not saying that i won't be getting angry or say another curse word ever again, but hey it's start isn't it?

one can always tell whenever there's something that i needed to do because of my frequent journal entries. i have to review for my final exams next week and the qualifying exam the week after that. but since it's still too early to study, i might as well do this. a little exercise for the brain. hehe.

 for the first time in weeks, i did not give a rat's ass about pinoy big brother. last thursday, i jiust spent the whole night in front of my pc, playing mario. i was too depressed to do anything else because my ipod is sick and it needs a hard drive transplant. my cousin tells me maybe it's better to just buy a new one, but the thought of doing and using my sweetie as a really expensive paperweight and nothing more pains me. that's why i'm gonna get it fixed. if only i had 5000 pesos and a place where i can buy the hard drive from. i tried not to be too pissed about it. i told myself that as with all other material things, my ipod can be replaced. it might take me a long time to do so, but nevertheless it can be replaced. i miss it terribly now that my exams are coming up, but like what i have told my friend, i have survived the first 21 years of my life without it, what's another few months or years? i would just have to think that when He takes away something, He will replace it with something greater. or something like that. an ipod video maybe? hehe

and now for american idol. i had mixed emotions when i was watching last night's episode. i was happy that kevin made the final 12 (and i think i'm the only but it's ok )but was sad that will makar had to be eliminated. honestly, as much i loved kevin, i would rather have will on the show than him. and for the girls, i think i whooped when ryan seacrest announced that it was melissa who would be staying,not ayla. i'm happy that i would get to hear melissa for another week, although i think that she would pretty much have the same fate as jessica sierra did. i just wish that it was not ayla who had to go home, but kellie.

it was my first time to go to seattle's best for coffee last night (because i live in a cave sorry hehe) and i loved the raspberry mocha (or was it mocha raspberry?) kiss! i wonder if it would still taste the same if i had a mocha with raspberry syrup in starbucks?  

tinatamad pa ko mag aral. argh

i had a dream last night, that somebody texted me and said that kevin's the one who's getting the boot today. i ran to the nearest pc shop after my physics exam and read the spoilers. for those who hate him (and i know that there are many of you out there), sorry to tell you guys, but we are going to see chicken little again for another week. i love this guy! i mean i know he's not the best singer in this competition and he's totally out of his league, but i dunno i think i'm going through a dorky guy phase right now. haha. and i think it's cute the way stevie wonder said "little kevin..." or maybe i like this guy so much because of his resemblance to chicken little. i watched that movie alone, and half the time i was talking to myself how cute chicken little is. yep. that must be it.

i want either taylor, elliot, katharine, or mandisa to win this season so much. but i'm thinking it might be chris. boo. overpimped.