The Fifth Marauder

i just had it with blogspot. too complicated. blogging is supposed to be some sort of release, an outlet for me to relax and say something that i wanted to say, and i can't really relax when i wanted to yank all my hair out because of frustration.

i hope that tabulas is much much easier or else i am going to chuck my computer out of the window. nah, just kidding.

teachers, parents, mentors, and confidantes have always told me that everything happens on our lives has a reason. god is behind every bad or good thing. that those bad stuff happens because god has a plan for us. i grudgingly try to steer myself away from this belief, as the conclusion that comes from it is that we should blame god for every little bad thing that comes to our lives. don't get me wrong, i still believe in god, i believe there is a god. this comes naturally if you're raised as a catholic.

i do not want to go as far as blaming god for the bad things that happen in my life. i am blessed with lenient parents who leaves to make decisions about which school to go to, what course to take, and what should i do with my life. i know some kids my age do not have the happy power that my parents gave me. they let me run amok with their hard-earned money because i think they didn't want me to blame them someday if i end up being miserable with a job that i didn't want in the first place.

i am miserable right now, and i have no one to blame but myself. i cannot blame god because the reason i am where i am right is the consequence of my poorly planned decisions. the blame resides with me, and me alone. but then some people would say that god made that happen because he has a bigger plan for me. i so badly wanted to believe this, but i still can't help but think that it's not god's fault that i am an idiot.

and the concept of praying comes into the story. if god really has our futures planned, why bother praying for something? don't get me wrong, i still pray and go to church and stuff, but i pray just to say thanks for all the blessings that he has given me, that even if i am a mean, mean person, he still gives me stuff that i do not deserve, and to say sorry for being a mean, mean person. and then i tell him that he knows what i want, and it will be totally up to him whether i am getting it or not.

also about working for something and praying for it. it's totally stupid to pray to win the lottery when we don't even buy a lottery ticket. if all the catholics in the world accepted the fact that god has a plan for them, then the world would be filled with bum catholics.

oh no, i am not attacking the catholic religion or anything. it's just one of life's mysteries. i love god and no matter how many bad stuff happens in my life, i won't ever stop believing in him. even if i get to be an old maid living in a small house on the hill with white picket fences and 27 cats, then be it. oh wait i don't really like cats. uh.. dogs maybe?

yeah, i know what you're thinking. where have i been? well let's just say that the only way i can watch movies is if i see them on tv or rent a dvd.

anyway, i have seen this movie on dvd last night. i have read reviews about this movie when it was new (hehe) and the writer of the column said that it was not really a promising movie because julia stiles (paige morgan) and luke mably (prince edvard) does not have on-screen chemistry. well it was sort of true. but i really like the way they got into their characters. and i absolutely love julia stiles. she's my guilty pleasure hehe. it's because although julia is not the prettiest, tallest, or the sexiest actresses her age, but she gives justice to every role she portrays.

luke mably however, was cute in his own way i guess. there really is something about boys with accents. hehe

i guess one could say that it was the typical teen flick. but i enjoyed this movie. it was full of surprises. it really showed that being royalty is not just attending royal balls, and fancy clothes. being royalty is a great responsibility. one really does not have time for love and relationships because there are so many things to attend to. maybe that's why kids from royal families are bethroted (sp?) at birth. i mean what really is the point of marrying for love when you don't even have time for it? for royal families, marriage is treated as a merger or a binding contract.

i'm sure most girls wanted to be princesses when they were young. even i do. i guess being a princess isn't that easy huh?

what i liked about this movie is that it has less cheese factor than princess diaries (the movie is like so different from the book but we'll get to that some other time). it was kind of realistic.

the drama is about lorelai and rory gilmore, two girls who have an extraordinary relationship. extraordinary meaning, lorelai is rory's mother and they are each other's bestfriends. and that's saying something because not all daughters agree with their moms and vice versa.

i have only started watching this show so please forgive me for the out of date rehash of the events i have seen so far.

watching this tv program always makes me crave for a cup of coffee because those gilmore girls drink it as if it were water. and the creator/scriptwriter must have been a very talkative person because the characters has tons of dialogue. it was like watching joey potter (of dawson's creek fame) brought to life in every actor.

you can't imagine any other actress other than lauren graham play lorelai. even when watching lauren in other roles, i always seem to associate her with lorelai. anyway, i like lorelai because she is gorgeous, smart, spunky, and has a beautiful, sweet daughter and actually gets along with her. so what if he doesn't have a husband? if she didn't finish college? that goes to show that in this world a confident attitude is important. but i am not saying that people shouldn't finish college anymore. having a degree is important and if it goes hand in hand with the right attitude, you can be invincible.

at first, i wanted lorelai to end up with luke from the diner because they are complete opposites and i think they can balance each other out. but then christopher (none other than rory's dad) suddenly appeared, and i found myself hoping that him and lorelai can end up together because he is hot! LOL. and i don't like max medina one bit because he's too cocky. that's why i was so happy when their engagement was over.

and now to rory. she's lorelai minus the spunk. i would actually like her if it weren't for her bad choice of guys. come on rory! can't you see that tristan is much, much hotter than dean? not to mention richer too!

all in all, gilmore girls is an addictive show. i would just have to close my eyes whenever they drink coffee

i don't visit pinoyexchange.com regularly because it is such a hassle to navigate those forums because each link i go to takes too darned long to finish loading. it might be because i am just using a dial up connection, maybe because of pex server overload. i only visit this at times when i am bored out of my mind or when i am waiting for a song to finish downloading. anyway, ii just can't help but post this guy's (or at least i think he was a he) post to the forum entitled "most unforgettable masturbating experience". i can't stop laughing after i read it, even when i went to sleep at night, i was thinking about it, what he must have looked like when that happened. now i may not have a way of knowing whether this really happened or not, but i would just like to share this with the tabulas world and maybe it would also put a smile in your face.

Well sa'kin naman I think I was still in high school then, nagmasturbate ako sa loob ng room ko. Malapit na talaga ako sa climax n'un nang biglang nahulog ang butiki sa may kisame at naglanding sa may puson ko. Bigla akong napabalikwas at ang nakakatawa pa roon eh nakapasok pa ang butiki sa loob ng jogging pants ko. Ha ha ha! Para akong nagbreakdance n'un, talo ko pa si Michael Jackson. Everytime na maalala ko 'yon I can't help but laugh at myself. What do you think, nahilo kaya 'yung butiki sa kakapanood sa 'kin?

you can visit the complete thread here. all the other posts are funny as well but nothing beats what this guy had to say.

that is the title of the sex and the city episode i have just seen recently. funny, because i used to like this show so much and now i only watch it when there's nothing else good on tv. maybe i just got tired of carrie bradshaw being a drama queen all the time. no offense to carrie fans out there.

anyway, this episode is about carrie having an affair with her ex-boyfriend big, who is married at that time. oh and by the way, aidan is also carrie's boyfriend when all this happened. charlotte is getting married and when she found out about this, she got mad at carrie. and what charlotte said really stuck with me. (i am just paraphrasing what they said so please bear with me) she said that sure, carrie feels guilty about what she and big are doing but does she sometimes stop and think what big's wife (natasha) might feel if the affair comes out in the open? what would be happening to natasha when she finds out? charlotte also said that carrie only cares what would happen to her if she and big would be found out.

and i suddenly remembered why i watch sex and the city. the girls say some things that would really hit home. however i think i may be too young for sex and the city. not because of the sexual content, but because of the emphasis they put on romantic relationships. it's messing up with my brain. not that there's nothing wrong with that, but sometimes i forget that i am still young, i have my whole life ahead of me and these girls are already in their late 30's. of course they want relationships because they have already pretty much done everything.

so now i think i'm gonna finish college first, then get a kick ass job. who knows? maybe by that time i can live their life.

help. how do i put a tagboard? and my layout sucks. thanx any kind of help would be greatly appreciated

there's nothing worse than getting a fever along with your period. you feel icky enough as it is, and the best part is that you can't wash your hair or take a shower because the fever might turn into a pneumonia. so with the menstrual cramps, i have to deal with cough, a stuffy nose, a sore throat, body pains, and a pounding headache.